Likhari: kahani buzdil, mohsana jilani, issue 3

rfq afpxI sMpUrn iekwlqf aqy nHyrf leI DrqI Auqy Auqwr afeI sI. bYwz rUm dI iKVkI qoN prdy df koxf isrkf ky Ausny bfhr qwikaf. awj asfDfrn qOr qy lMzn df asmfn sfÌ sI. qfry tuwt ky inkl afey sn.
sVk dy dohF pfisaF qy lwgy hoey lMby lMby drKqF dy AuqoN dI AusdIaF AulJIaF hoeIaF nËrF glI dy nukV ivc jf ky Tihr geIaF. TIk ies smyN hI hfl ivc lwgy hoey GiVafl ny do bjfey aqy Ausdy aMdr hI aMdr pqf nhIN kI tuwt igaf. Ausƒ afpxf idmfgI sMquln ivgVdf hoieaf anuBv ho irhf sI. Auh qIvIN, ijhVI sfry Gr ƒ sMBfl sMBfl rwKdI, afpxy aMdr dIaF vsqF dI sMBfl nf kr skI. Ausdy aMdr bYTI kwc dI guwzI ijvyN bhfdrI df ÊrUr, cUr cUr ho rhI sI aqy Aupr dI ÈKsIaq byhy Puwl dIaF pwqIaF vFg sfry Gr ivc ibwKr ky rih geI sI.
awj rfq, sdf vFg hI Ausƒ iPr dyr ho geI sI. Auh awj vI nhIN afvygf. bynqI leI hwQ cuwkI, hrIaF hrIaF ÈfKfvF, sVk Auqy jl rhy pIly pIly mDm cfnx ivc cuwp cfp sON geIaF sn. rfh bhuq hI cuwp sI. nf iksy kfr dy dOVn dI afvfË sI aqy nf hI iksy dy kdmF dI cfp hI.
iKVkI dy kol KiVHaF KiVHaF Ausny afpxI kmr ƒ doohF hwQF nfl PV ky soicaf: afiKr Auh, Aus bMdy leI ikAuN pryÈfn ho rhI hY ijhVf AusdI prvfh nhIN krdf.. afiKr Auh sON ikAN nhIN jFdI? Auh Qwk ky zrYisMg tybl dy sfhmxy bYT geI. burÈ hwQ ivc PVI Auh afpxy vflF ƒ kuJ vwD hI AulJFdI rhI. pIlf ichrf, buJHIaF buJHIaF awKF. Aus ny Juwk ky ÈIÈy dy hor nyVy huMidaF afpxf jfieËf ilaf. dyr qwk ÈIÈy ivc afpxy afp ƒ lwiBaf. Auh kuVI ikwQy guafc geI? iËwdI ichry vflI. Aumr iKafm dIaF do rubfeIaF leI, Puwl vFg qfËf qy hry-Bry ichry vflI. ieh Ausƒ kI hoieaf? idwl ny cfihaf ik ÈIÈy Auqy pwQr mfr ky Ausƒ cUr cUr kr dyvy aqy Aus kuVI ƒ ikiqAuN lwB ilafvy ijhVI AusdI ÈKsIaq qoN bfhr inkl ky aqIq idaF KMzHrF ivc jf lukI sI aqy vrqmfn Aus ƒ pihcfnx qoN ieMnkfrI sI. awKF DuMDlfeIaF qF ichrf hor vI ivgV igaf. Aus ny Gbrf ky jldIaF awKF qlIaF nfl sfÌ kIqIaF.
Auh iblkul vI rovygI nhIN. Auh buËidl nhIN hY. Auh hflfq dy sfhmxy hiQafr nhIN sutwygI. Auh socdI rhI. afiKr Aus dI iËMdgI hflfq dy hwQoN ieMnI AulJ ky ikAuN rih geI. ieh iensfn, Auh qy nhIN hY, ijs df Ausny supnf dyiKaf sI. Auh iensfn, afiKr Ausƒ ikAuN nf imilaf? Aus Gr df kI bixaf ijsdI Ausdy Ëihn ivc bhuq hI suMdr aqy spÈt klpnf sI?
Ausny qF jIvn dIaF bhuq hI sfDfrn KuÈIaF mMgIaF sn koeI aijhI nf ho skx vflI cIj qF nhIN mMgI sI ijhVI AusdI iksmq nf bxdI. bs iek imhrbfn idwl, iewk ÈFq Gr, supnf supnf, ËihnI sfQ, iewko ijhf ierfdf aqy idwl dI ÈFqI. Aus dIaF awKF bMd ho rhIaF sn. Blf jfgdIaF awKF nfl vyKy jfx vfly supny vI kdy sfkfr hoey ny? pqf nhIN kdoN Auh ibsqry qy puwjI aqy pqf nhIØN kdoN AusdI awK KulHI. svyry svyry Auh hVbVfAuNdI AuwTI. swq bjy dy alfrm dy nfl Ausdf idwl ieMJ qyËI nfl DVk irhf sI ik ijvyN CfqI cIr ky bfhr inkl afvygf.
dovyN DIaF Ausdy ibsqry ivc afx vVIaF sn.
"mMmI --- AuTdy ikAuN nhIN qusIN --- skUl jfx ƒ dyr ho rhI ey. zYzI ikQy ny?" dohF ny iewko bfr hI puiwCaf.
"kMm qy gey ny." Ausny awgy vFg hI JUT boilaf. Auh dovyN afAux vfly bybI dI AuzIk ivc bhuq prsMn ivKfeI dy rhIaF sn. Auh ibnF kfrx hwsdIaF rihMdIaF.
"sfzf bybI. afiKr kdoN afvygf mMmI?" CotI DI Aus dy gwl ivc bfhF pfeI puwC rhI sI. "mYNƒ qF BYx cfhIdI ey."
"nhIN, mYNƒ qF vIr cfhIdf ey. mYN AusdI prfm lY ky imws ƒ ivKflx skUl lY jfvFgI."
"nhIN, qUM bhuq CotI eyN." bVI DI ny toikaf aqy iPr dovyN afpxI gwl qy bihs krn lwg peIaF.
buwJHy hoey idwl ny iewk bfr iPr ijAuNdy hox df aYlfn kIqf. Auh muskfAux lwgI. AusnUM lwgf ik jwnq iPr iek bfr AusidaF kdmF hyT af rhI hY.. Ausny do bfr afpxy afp dI, afpxI Ëfq dI isrjxf kIqI sI. bhuq hI vwzy drd dy qUÌfn ivcoN lMG ky ieh dovyN afBf vfly moqI Ausdy hwQ lwgy sn. Ausny afpxI hoNd ƒ Gtf ky iehnF dohF dI pflnf kIqI sI. bxfieaf sMvfiraf sI. afpxy smyN df iewk iewk pwl iehnF Auqy Krc kIqf sI. "jykr iehnF dohF dI iksmq vI myry vFg hI inklI, qF -- qF iPr kI hovygf?"
Ausdf mwQf psIny nfl iBwJ igaf. aqy idl cIKdf-iclFdf Ausdy gwl ivc af igaf.
"myry rwbf! mYN sMsfr dy duwK aqy musIbqF sih lvFgI. iehnF dy ihwwsy dy sfry hI aMgfry myrI Jol ivc pf dy. iehnF dy rfhF dy sfry hI kÈt-kMzy mYNƒ dy dy pr iehnF ƒ koeI duwK nf deIN." ieh ikho ijhf suwK Biraf pwl sI ik Ausƒ ieMny kÈtF dy sfhmxy kr igaf. aqy Ìrj kro Ausdy aMdr plwx vfl ieh inwkf vËUd vI iewk kuVI hoeI qF iPr kI hovygf?" Ausny Gbrf ky, nFh ivc isr Jtikaf. Auh ies bfry ivc hor socx qoN kMnI kqrf rhI sI. ary BeI --- hux CyqI nfl iqafr ho jf. dyr ho jfvygI. Ah mswilaF nfl Bry sMsfr ivc muV afeI sI.
awj Ausny kilink jfxf sI. KUn dI Gft sI, hor cYk awp. afiern dI sÉq loV. zfktr dIaF hdfieqF ƒ suixaf-axsuixaf krn bdly Ausƒ nf-AumIdI df dOrf pY irhf sI. bwcy dI pYdfieÈ dI qrIk 13 jUn Èukrvfr df idn dwisaf igaf sI. 13 qrIk aqy Èukrvfr. Auh soc rhI sI: ieh qy bhuq hI bdiksmq idn hY.
"qusIN ieMny buJHy buJHy lwgdy E imsyË aihmd! Èfied qusF afiern dIaF golIaF KfxIaF Cwz idwqIaF ny. qusIN afpxf iKafl rwiKaf kro." zfktr kih irhf sI: "quhfƒ qF bhuq KuÈ rihxf cfhIdf ey."
isrjxf dy ies muwZly dOr ivc qF lwgdf ey ik iesqrI ijvyN sony ivc Zwl ky cMd dIaF irÈmF ivc nHf ky inklI hovy. aqy sfry sMsfr dy gulfbF df ark ijvyN aMg aMg ivc smf igaf hovy pr iewQy qF mfmlf byhwd Ault sI. nYÈnl hYlQ Auqy afeIaF sfrIaF ivtfimnË aqy afiern dIaF golIaF qF ikcn kYbinwt ivc hI peIaF rihMdIaF sn. awKF dy afly duafly kfly dfÊ aqy ichry qy peIaF CfeIaF cIk cIk ky aYlfn krdIaF ik Euh Gr dy kuMj ivc KVI iewk aijhI kmËor byl ey ijsƒ iksy qfkqvr drÉq jF PYNs df shfrf nf imilaf hovy. ijsdIaF tfhxIaF DrqI qy peIaF pYrF hyT imwDIaF geIaF hox. --myry qy Ìuwl ikvyN iKVx, mYN ipafr dI Duwp qoN vFHJI aqy bwdlF dI ikrpf qoN nfvfikÌ. bs iewk kmËor byl hI qF hF. rIsYpÈn qy afky Ausny tYksI leI Ìoon kIqf.
"qYNƒ koeI lYx nhIN af irhY?" rIsYpÈn qy bYTI kuVI ny bhuq hI apxwq nfl JuwkidaF aqy muskFidaF puwiCaf. Auh, Aus ƒ kI jvfb dyvy. Auh, ijsƒ iewQy Aus nfl hoxf cfhIdf sI. Èfied rfq Br df Qwikaf hfiraf hux Gr muV afieaf hovygf aqy sfry mfmly qoN byÉbr sON irhf hovygf qF jo rfq ƒ iPr lMzn dy kfÌI-hfAUsF, jUaf-GrF aqy suwqIaF peIaF gwlIaF ƒ afbfd krdf iPry. Auh pqf nhI ikhVI KuÈI dI Bfl ivc sI. hÌqy Br dI kmfeI ies JUTI KuÈI dI Byt ho jFdI. aqy jd jyb KflI ho jFdI qF Ausdf mUz iblkul Krfb ho jFdf. pqnI jF bwcIaF ivc AusdI koeI idlcspI nhIN sI rhI. aËrf ny bfr bfr soicaf sI ik Auh Ausƒ bdl dyvygI pr kuJ lokIN aijhy huMdy ny ijhnF ƒ kdy vI bdilaf nhIN jf skdf.
qF iPr qF, Ausƒ hflfq nfl smJOqf kr hI lYxf cfhIdf hY. Auh aksr Ausƒ lwK qswlIaF idMdI. do ipafr krn vflIaF DIaF ny, Gr hY aqy iewk cMgf pYNniÈneybl ikwqf hY. hor Aus ƒ kI cfhIdf hY? pr Auh prsMn ikAuN nhIN hY. Auh ikhVI KuÈI hY ijhVI idwl ƒ QMmdI aqy rUh ƒ sMpUrn qswlI nfl Br idMdI hY?
iewk Cwq dy hyTF, cONh kMDF dy ivckfr, do iensfn ikMny nyVy pr ËihnI qOr qy ikMnI dUr hn. dohF ivckfr ikMnIaF dUrIaF ny. ËihnI sfQ nf imlx dy zr ny Ausƒ afpxy aMdr dI cfr idvfrI ivc kYd kr ilaf hY. Auh ies kYd ivcoN bfhr inklxf cfhuMdI hY pr kdy bwicaF df ihwq sfhmxy af KloNdf aqy kdy dunIaF df iÉafl.
iek bfr, dUjI DI dy jnm qy Aus Auqy ƒizprYÈnƒ df aijhf sÉq dOrf ipaf ik Auh soÈl sikAuirtI dy dÌqr phuMc geI. Auh ies kYd ivcoN bfhr inklxf cfhuMdI sI. rfh ivc pqf nhI ikMnI bfr AusdI mF Ausdy rfh ivc af KVoqI sI: ieh qUM kI kr rhI eyN? sfzy Kfndfn ivc kI kdy aijhf hoieaf ey.---- pqf nhIN ieh sfrIaF mfvF iewko ijhIaF gwlF hI ikAuN krdIaF hn. ieh DIaF ƒ ikAuN Xfd idlFdIaF rihMdIaF hn ik hr Ëmfny ivc mrd dI iDMgoËorI rhI hY aqy quhfƒ iehnF qoN Cutkfrf nhIN imlygf. bwcIaF df soco: iehnF df kI bxygf. qUM AuhnF dy ivafh krny ny. jykr qUM ies bMDn qoN afËfd vI ho geI qF dunIaf ieho hI khygI ik qyry ivc hI koeI BYV sI. mrd Ëfq df kI hY? iesƒ koeI kuJ nhIN afKygf. Dwbf qF qyry Auqy hI lgygf ijhVf kdy vI lQygf nhI.
AuDr soÈl vrkr smJFdI: bwcy afpxI QF mhwqvpUrn ny, pr qUM juafn eyN, qyrf jIvn vI bhuq aihm hY. jykr Aus nfl nhIN bxdI qF vwK ho jf. bs, iswDI ijhI gwl hY. ies afly duafly ivc qUM iekwlI qF nhIN. qyry ijhIaF hËfrF iesqrIaF ny.
Auh afiKr iks dI gwl suxy. iehnF kÈtF dI slIb cuwkI ikwQy ikwQy iPry. Auh ikho ijhI dldl ivc PsI hoeI hY ijQoN inklxf AusdI qfkq ivc nhIN. tuwty hoey supinaF dI lVI, iek sIn vFg AusdIaF awKF sfhmxy lihrFdI hY. do idlF ƒ bMnHx df vI kI qrIkf hY. ivafh dy joVy ivc vlytI hoeI Auh glfDV kuVI awj ikMnI cuwp hY. mihMdI, btnf aqy suhfg dy aqr dI KuÈbU ikho ijhy supny idKf rhI hY. hOlI hlI ikvyN jfn inkl rhI hY.
cfcI-aMmf duafvF pVH ky Aus dy ichry qy PUkF mfr rhI hY.
"awlf! nËr nf lwgy. bs, ishry dy Puwl Kulx dI dyr sI. Kudf iesƒ KuÈ rwKy. sdf suhfgx rhyN." AuNJ qF Puwl roË roË hI iKVdy ny pr suhfg dy Puwl. iehnF dI qF bs sugMDI hI vwKrI huMdI hY. ieh ikho ijhIaF afvfËF hn ijhVIaF Ausdy kMnF dy koxy lfl-sUhy kr rhIaF hn. inkfh leI kfËI af rhy ny. do idlF ƒ imlfAux df ikho ijhf ZMg hY. ieh ikho ijhI rIq hY?
awlf!---- ieh idwl ikAuN tuwt irhf hY. DVkdf hI jf irhf hY. Tihrdf ikAuN nhIN? bVy cfcf, Ausdy isr qy hwQ rwKI, iGwGI bwJHy gly nfl kih rhy ny: "bol bytI--- hF kihdy--- kihdy ik kbUl hY." ieh inkfh nfmf hY ik Aumr Br dI hfr df iekrfrnfmf. idwl cfhuMdf hY ik bs iewk pwl leI nFh kih dyvy (sdf hI aijhf kMm krnf cfhuMdI sI ijhVf iksy ny kdy nf kIqf hovy) pr nhIN kr skdI.
ieh iks gwl df zr hY. ieh ikho ijhf BY hY ik kMbdI hoNd nfl hF kih idMdI hY. inkfh-nfmy qy dsÉq kridaF hwQ ikvyN kMb irhf hY. -mubfrk hovy nvIN iËMdgI-- sKIaF shylIaF vDfeIaF dy rhIaF hn. mF acfnk rox lwgI hY ik DI dUr dys cly jfvygI. BYx-Brf iek vfrgI Audfs ho gey hn. hux gwl gwl qy kOx vfDU dI qkrfr krygf? kOx lVygf? AultIaF iswDIaF gwlF kr krky sfry Gr ƒ hsf hsf ky kOx "kysr dy Kyq" bxf dyvygf? hfsy aqy hMJUaF df ikho ijhf zUMGf sfQ hY. hwsidaF hwsidaF vI qF awKF iBwJx lwg pYNdIaF ny. inkfh df iek bol pVHidaF hI sB kuJ bdl igaf. sB kuJ hfr bYTI. ÈqrMj dI Kyz ivc Blf mohiraF dI kI ihMmq. iewDroN cuwikaf, AuDwr rwK idwqf.
supnf tutky toty toty ho igaf hY. Auh bMdf Ausƒ ikAuN nf imilaf ijs dy Auh supny dyiKaf krdI sI. ijhVf jIvn dy kOVy plF ivc jykr Auh zgmgfAuNdI qF agHF vwD ky sMBfl lYNdf. sFB lYNdf. aqy jykr kdy Gbrf ky rox lwg jFdI qF Ausdy sfry hMJUaF ƒ moqIaF vFg afpxIaF qlIaF Auqy boc lYNdf. ËihnI sfQ leI Auh, Aus kflpink iensfn ƒ ikwQoN lwBy. iek aihdnfmy Auqy dsÉq krn dy bfad vI AusdI iksmq ivc rfq dy swnfty aqy Gr df ieklfpf hI afieaf.
kilink qoN Gr afAuNdy afAuNdy supinaF dI lVI tuwt geI sI. lwgpwg awDI rfq ƒ, Ausny drvfËf bMd hox aqy kdmF dI cfp suxI. QoVf icr Auh sfh-sfDI ibswqry Auqy peI rhI. iPr bYwzrUm ivcoN inkl ky zrfeINg rUm qk puwjI. Auh Qkfvt nfl cUr cUr soÌy Auqy hI ivMgf tyZf lyitaf hoieaf sI. gwl dy btn KulHy sn. hflF qk tfeI bwJHI hoeI sI. Auh iewk bwcy vFg ijhVf ik kpVy bdly ibnF hI sON igaf hovy, by-Ébr GurfVy mfr irhf sI. aËrf ƒ iek aËIb qrHF dI bdbU df aihsfs hoieaf. Auh bhuq pI ky afieaf sI. Èfied sB kuJ hfr ky.
ivcfrf iensfn. pihlF vFg hI sihj-suBf socx lwgI: Èfied ÊlqI myrI hY. mYN hI iesƒ idmfgI ÈFqI nf dy skI. ies ipwCoN Auh sfrI rfq jfgdI rhI, PYsly krdI rhI aqy qoVdI rhI. AusdI mF bfr bfr Aus dy PYsilaF Auqy Ausƒ tokdI rhI. kdy Ausdy aMdr dI iËwdI kuVI sÌl ho jFdI. lVkI ƒ afpxy pqI dI mrËI awgy Jukxf hI pYNdf hY. bwicaF dI Éfiqr, sFJf Blf vI iesy ivc hI hY. ieho hI kuVI dI iksmq hY. sdIaF qoN ieho kuJ hI huMdf afieaf hY.
mF, ipafr nfl Ausdf hwQ PV lYNdI. aqy Auh iËwdI kuVI afpxf isr Jukf idMdI. "qUM buËidl kuVI eyN---" Ausdy aMdr hI koeI cIË Jwt hI tuwt jFdI.
lMzn ivc iewk bfr iPr bhfr af geI sI. rfq dI rfq ivc hI pwiqaF rihq drÉqF ny hiraflI pihn leI. zozIaF ny awKF JpkfeIaF aqy kwcIaF klIaF dI kuafrI sugMD, ikrnF dI pihlI kUlI kUlI PusPusfht nfl jfg peI. jUn df mhInf afrMB ho cuikaf sI aqy qIjy bwcy dy jnm ivc kuJ idn bfkI rih gey sn. aËrf bhuq nrvs ho rhI sI aqy AusdI bOKlfht ivc idn-bidn vfDf ho irhf sI. ikMny hI ZyrF dy Zyr kMm krny bfkI sn. ilafAux vflIaF ËrUrI cIËF dI sUcI Ausdy prs ivc sI. pqf nhIN kI kI KrIdx vflf sI aqy iPr hspqfl jfx qoN pihlF bwcIaF dI dyK-Bfl df vI prbMD krnf sI. ikMnI hYrfnI vflI gwl sI ik Auh bwcIaF dy mfmly ivc vI ipAu Auqy Brosf nhIN sI kr skdI. pqf nhIN kdoN AuhnF ƒ iekwilaF Cwz ky quwr jfvy. Ausdy rvweIey ivc Ërf ijMnf vI Ìrk nhIN sI afieaf. "vIk-aYNz" qy bfhr jfx leI Auh pr qol irhf sI. pr awj, aËrf ny soc ilaf sI ik Auh ÌYslfkuMn glbfq krygI. AusqoN kI ÊlqI ho geI? Auh afiÉr kI cfhuMdf hY? mhIinaF bwDI cuwp, Ëbfn mMg rhI sI. aqy Auh afpxf isr JukfeI KVI sI.
Auh bfQ-rUm ivcoN nHf-Do ky iqafr ho ky inkilaf. vflF ƒ sukf ky, qOlIaf soÌy Auqy hI lfprvfhI nfl suwt ky aqy sItI vjFdf hoieaf ÈIÈy dy sfhmxy KVf ho igaf. aËrf -- pUrI iqafrI nfl sfhmxy af geI sI.
"mYN puwCdI hF iPr ikwQoN dI iqafrI ey? qyry nfl kuJ slfh krnI ey." mhIinaF qoN ieMnHF dy ivckfr KVI hoeI TMzI jMg dI kMD ivc qRyVF pYx lwgIaF.
Ausny bVI hYrfnI nfl aËrf vlF qwikaf. (qF qUM hfr mMn hI leI afiKr. qYNƒ myry awgy Jukxf hI ipaf.)
"qUM ikAuN puwC rhI eyN. mYN ibnF loVoN qF bfhr mfiraf mfiraf nhIN iPrdf. aqy iPr-- iPr mYN ikqy vI jfvF, qUM myry Auqy rokF lfAux vflI kOx eyN afiKr?"
"mYN, mYN qyrI pqnI hF," Ausny qVp ky jvfb idwqf--"bwicaF aqy Gr leI isrÌ iewk vIkaYNz hI huMdf hY. AuNJ qF hr roË hI bfhr rihMdy ho. agly hÌqy hspqfl jfxf hY. sfry kMm aDUry pey hn. ÈfipMg vI krnI hY."
"qF iPr rokdf kOx ey qYNƒ? mdr-kyar clI jfh. qYNƒ rfh afAuNdf ey nf? hor afiKr kI cfhuMdI ey? mYN qF ËrUrI kMm leI jfxf hY." Ausny PYslf krn vfly aMdfË ivc ikhf.
"aijhy ikhVy ËrUrI kMm leI jfxf ey?" aËrf ny nfrfË huMidaF ikhf: "ieh ikAuN nhIN kihMdy ik PrfeI-zy nfeIt ims nhIN krnf cfhuMdy."
aihmd ny hYrfn ho ky, muV ky Ausƒ vyiKaf. ieh byËbfn, byvkUÌ ijhI kuVI, ijhVI sdf hI Ausdy sfhmxy iBwJHI ibwlI bxI rhI. iesƒ afiKr kI ho igaf?
mOky dI nËfkq jfx ky, Ausny hOlI ijhI afiKaf: "CyqI hI muV afvFgf. iksy ƒ imlxf ey. ËrUrI kMm ey."
AuhI purfxy iGsy-ipty vfk. AuhI byhIaF gwlF. awËrf dy aMdr luwkI hoeI iËwdI kuVI ny rfh sfÌ dyiKaf qF iblkul sfhmxy af geI---
"ieh sB hux myrI brdfÈq qoN bfhr ey. jfx qoN pihlF awj qYNƒ ÌYslf krnf pvygf." Auh qyËI nfl AuwTI aqy aihmd dy rfh ivc kMD bx ky KVo geI. aijhy vfk dI afs nhIN sI, aihmd burI qrHF JuMJlf AuwiTaf.
"qyrf idmfg qF nhIN Krfb." Auh Jwlf bxidaF kUikaf: "lMzn ivc ds vrHy rih ky idmfg iblkul hI Krfb ho igaf. afpxI aOkfq Buwl geI."
"cfhy kuJ vI kih," Ausny nihly qy dihlf mfridaF jvfb idwqf, "awj qUM iblkul hI bfhr nhIN jfvyNgf. awj qYNƒ PYslf krnf hI pvygf. "bkvfs bMd kr aqy myrf rfh Cwz dy." "iblkul nhIN, kdy vI nhIN, cfhy awj kuJ vI ho jfvy."
Ausny afpxf iewk hwQ pOVI dI bfhI qy rwiKaf aqy dUjf kMD Auqy. Auh, Ausdf rfh rokI KVI sI. ichrf qwp irhf sI aqy awKF bwl rhIaF sn. hMJUaF df qUÌfn plkF Auqy ruikaf KVf sI ijvyN ik huxy hI CwjIN ro pvygI. pr awj Auh ro ky afpxI buËidlI df vKfvf nhIN sI krnf cfhuMdI.
Auh buËidl nhIN hY. dovyN DIaF sfh rokI KVIaF sn.
aihmd guwsy nfl pfgl ho AuwiTaf. ieh kuVI afpxy afp ƒ kI smJdI hY? qYÈ ivc idmfg dIaF rwgF ijvyN pftx lwgIaF. iesny "af dyiKaf nf qfa" iewk lwq pUrI dI pUrI Ausdy iZwZ Auqy jV idwqI. aËrf dy mUhoN iewk iBafnk cIk inklI. Auh ckrf ky PrÈ Auqy izwg peI aqy Ausdy srIr ivcoN KUn df Ìuhfrf Ìuwt ipaf. ieMnf, ijAuNdf jfgdf KUn. Ausdy hoÈ iTkfxy afAux lwgy. ieh kI ho igaf, ieh sB ikvyN ho igaf. Auh pfglF vFg iewDr AuwDr dOVdf, kdy tYlIÌUn AuTFdf aqy kdy zfierYktrI ivcoN koeI nMbr lwBdf.
"afeI hyt XU zYzI," bVI DI jËbfqI aMdfË ivc cIk rhI sI. aqy CotI DI cIk cIk ky ro rhI sI: "XU hYv iklz mMmI-- XU hYv, XU hYv."
aihmd ny ÌYmlI cfktr ƒ Ìon kIqf aqy ihMmq hfrky ÌrÈ Auqy hI Aus pfs bYT igaf. Ausny afpxy hwQF vwl vyiKaf. aËrf ƒ sMBflx dI DuMn ivc dovyN hwQ KUn nfl Br gey. "afÌtr Èyv" aqy KUn dI imlI julI KuÈbU, nfsF ivc vVI qF Ausny afpxf isr PV ilaf.
KUn ivc nHfqI aËrf, PrÈ Auqy tyZI-myZI peI sI. socx smJx dy sfry hI gux ijvyN jvfb dy gey sn. iek idn ieMJ hI AusdIaF BYxF ny KUn rMgf joVf pihnfieaf aqy iPr dUr dys iewk Epry bMdy dy hvfly krky Gr vfilaF ny qswlI kr leI sI ijvyN lMzn nhIN, ies sMsfr ivc hI bihÈq dy idwqI hovy. Ausny kdy vI muV ky nf iliKaf ik AusnMU kI duwK hY? kI pIV hY? irÈqydfr mF ƒ qfhny dyxgy. gvFZI gwlF krngy ik iks nfl DI ivafh idwqI.
"pqI mjfËI Kudf (PrËI Kudf) hY. AusdI syvf krIN DIey. hwsdI afvyNgI qF Gr dy drvfËy KulHy imlxgy. lV-JgV ky afvyNgI qF iehnF ƒ bMd pfvyNgI."
"asIN qF kyvl afrËI dyKBfl kr rhy sF. qyrf aslI hwkdfr af igaf." srkMzy vFg kMbdI hoeI mF, hMJUaF ivc zuwbI hoeI afvfË, Zolk dI Qwp Qwp, ÈihnfeI dI kurlfht, sB kuJ aYNbUlYNs dIaF cIkF ivc luwk igaf. aqy iPr bolf kr dyx vflI cuwp Cf geI. imMtF ivc hI zfktr vI af puwijaf. ikMnf hYrfn sI. hflF ipCly hÌqy hI dyiKaf sI. cMgI BlI sI. "afiKr kI hoieaf?" Ausny Gbrf ky bhuq sfry suafl kr idwqy.
bVIaF bVIaF cmkIlIaF awKF ny iewk pwl zfktr ƒ vyiKaf. sFvly ichry qy cfnx af igaf. bhuq hI hOlI ijhy Ausny afpxy bulH KolHy aqy aiq dI kmËorI ivc Tihr Tihr ky bolI: "myrf--- myrf pYr iPsl igaf sI zfktr. mYN pOVIaF qoN izwg peI sI."

(pMjfbI rUp: zf: guridafl isMG rfey)
anuvfd/sMpfdnf: "brqfnvI lyKkfvF dIaF AurdU khfxIaF"