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kdy socdI hF, ikMnF cMgf huMdf qUM Auh ikqfb nf Cwz ky jFdf. swc puwCyN qF Es ikqfb ny hI sfry puafVy pfey ny.

qsvIrF qF qyrIaF myry kol hor vI ikMnIaF sn. zFs hfl dI, jdoN mYN kfsLnI rMg df lONg-zrYs pfieaf hoieaf sI qy qUM kfly sUt nfl 'mrUn bo-tfeI' lfeI hoeI sI. sivimMg pUl ivwc iewk dUsry qy iCwty pfAuNidaF dI. qy Es sLfm dI, jdoN mYN qyrI glvwkVI ivwc bYTI qyrIaF nsLeI awKF ivc qwk rhI sF. sc muwc myrI shylI nUM jIvn dIaF aBuwl XfdF nUM kYmry ivwc 'kYpcr' krn dI Kfs mhfrq hY.

pr Es ikqfb dy 'tfeItl-kvr' vflI qsvIr qF inrI myrI psMd dI iKwcHI hoeI jfpdI hY. hr vyly jdoN mYN Gr ivwc huMdI hF, qF ikcn dy kfAUNtr qy peI ikqfb vwl sLudfeIaF vFg JfkdI rihMdI hF. ijvyN Aus qoN koeI huMgfry dI AumId krdI hovF. ijvyN socdI hovF ik ieh huxy huxy mYnUM bulfx vflI hovy.

kdI kdI mYN Aus nUM apxI buwkl ivwc Gwut ky qyrI qsvIr nfl gwlF krn bYT jFdI hF.

'qUM 26 sfl pihlF myrI ijLMdgI ivwc ikEN nhI sYN af sikaf?'

'eynI qVPx lf ky hux vfps jfx df qyrf kI mqlb sI?'

'qyry ilKy gIqF ivwcoN mYnUM qyry ipMzy dI KusLbU ikEN afAuNdI rihMdI aY?

jdoN 'hfAUs-vfrimMg' dy smfgm qy bfpU jI dy nfl vIr jI qy BfbI jI vI Aucycf torONto qoN afey sn. qF Gr vVidaF AuhnF dI ingfh Es ikqfb qy peI sI. qy ikqfb dI PLoto qy. mYN vI ikMnI kmlI sF ik sfmxy hI ivKflf Dr ky bih geI, sLIsLy vfgUM. ijvyN 'qyrI hox dI' KusLI mYQoN sFBI nhI sI jFdI. ijvyN myrf koTy cVH ky sfrI lokfeI nUM hokf dyx nUM jI krdf hovy.

'kI eyysy lyKk dy bfry qUM afpxy vIr nUM dws rhI sYN, tYlIPLon qy?' cfh pINidaf hwQ ivwc PVI ikqfb vwl vyK ky BfbI jI ny puwiCaf sI. qy mYN musLkVIaF hsdI ny hF ivwc isr ihlf idwqf. iPr Auh, ivwcoN ivwcoN kuJ pVH ky pRBfvq ho AuWTI sI. mYN Aus dy bulFH qy PYldI muskfx qoN jfiejLf lf rhI sF. Auh nfl nfl cfh pINdI, myrI cox dI srfhxf krdI ids rhI sI.

'aYh piVHaY?' BfbI jI ny iewk pMny qy ruk ky puwiCaf. AuhnF dIaF awKF ivwc iewk shylIaF vrgf rhws sI.

'kI?'

'afh vyK.' qy EhnF pVH ky suxfieaf.

ikMnF vI sbr krF awQrU nf QMmHdy sn, Aus pftI icwTI dy, awKr vI kMbdy sn.

sfl ikMny inwkly Aus nUM gey,
nYx Aus ibn qwikaF suMny pey.
pqf nhI jINdI mYN ikhVI afs qy,
sFBdI sfh afpxy iks vfsqy.
ajy vI mYN vft qwkF Es dI,
ajy vI zrdI nf rwb nUM kosdI.

ies df ilKx ZMg bVf hI romFitk hY.' aflocnf kridaF AuhnF ikhf. mYN qyrIaF qfrIPLF suxdI KIvI ho rhI sF. ijvyN kih rhI hovF. ‘inrf ilKx ZMg hI nhI, ies dI iewk iewk Coh…[.' mYNnUM pUrn ivsLvfs hY AuhnF myrIaF awKF dI gulfbI rMgq pVH leI hoxI hY.

pqf nhI jdoN vIr jI ny qyry bfry afpxy iksy dosq nfl tYlIPLon krky puwC igwC kIqI, AuhnF sfzy irsLqy qy ikMqU kridaF ikhf.

'prmjIq! mYN qF khFgf eys Aumry dUsry ivafh df iKafl Cwz hI dyh. cMgI BlI kfmXfb mYzIkl pRYkits hY. eyh qyrf dosq eyny vwzy ruJyNivaF ivwc, jy qyrIaF afsLfvF qy pUrf nf AuWqr sikaf qF ikDry ijLMdgI dUsrI vfr Pyr bysvfdI nf ho jfvy. hux qF qYnUM ‘mdr tYrIsf dy ZMg nfl hI apxf jIvn Zfl lYxf cfhIdY.'

dr asl sLfied Auh swc bol ky myrf idl nhI duKfxf cfhuMdy sn. ikENik Auhnf nUM bfpU jI dI kwtV ivcfr Dfrf df pUrf aMdfjLf hY.

keI vfrIN iKafl afAuNdY, hr koeI dUsry ivakqI bfry eynI sOVI soc ikEN rwKdY. koeI hmsPLr ijLMdgI dI mMijLl afAux qoN pihlF hI rfh ivwc AuWqr igaf, qF kI kIqf jfvy. lokIN jIvn dy swc awKoN proKy ikEN kr idMdy hn, ik iewk XuvqI leI pMjfh sfl dI Aumr ho jfx qy acfnk ipafr krnf vrijq ho jFdY. kI Aus df iksy dy zOilHaF dI AUsLxqf mfnx nUM jI nhI krdf? kI koeI zfktr ho ky kdI bImfr nhI ho skdI? kI Ausdf hwk nhI bxdf, koeI Aus dy duK suK ivwc afsrf dyvy, mfnisk pIVf hr lvy?

do idnF leI pRfhuxcfrI afey irsLqydfrF nUM afpxy inrxy bfry dws ky AuhnF df jLfiekf kfhnUM Krfb krF. ieh soc ky, mYN qyrI ikqfb EQoN cuwk ky afpxy isrhfxy hyT rwK leI. AuhnF nUM lwgf, ijvyN gwl afeI geI ho geI. ijvyN AuhnF dy PLYsly qy mYN Puwl cVHf idwqy hox.

pr jfx vfly idn BfbI jI ny myry ‘bYz-rUm’ dy ‘zrYsr’ qy peI ikqfb Pyr vyK leI sI. ijs dy KulHy vrikaF qy sfzy bgIcy df iek duD icwtf gulfb mUDy mUMh ipaf sI. BfbI jI ny myyry nfl iewk Bfv pUrq qwkxI vtf leI sI. sLfied AuhnF ny anumfn lgf ilaf sI ik, 'eys XugF dI ipafsI koloN, afpxI qRyh dI iqRpqI leI koeI hor somF nhI lwBx jf hoxf.'

'brQ-zy' qy ByjI hoeI qyrI 'cYnI' nUM mY hmysLf gly ivwc pf ky rwKdI hF. kuJ vDyry hI lMmI hox krky aksr ieh AulJ jFdI sI. qy hux mYN ies nUM glmy dy aMdr vfr pfieaf hoieaf hY. mYnUM iesdf 'pYNzl' bhuq ipafrf lwgdY. sLfied nvF nvF hox kfrn ipMzy nUM kuJ KrHvf ijhf lwgdY, qyry mrd-hwQF vFg. pr iesdf adBuq sprsL, myry aMdr sdf iek sUKm jhI jlUx pYdf krdf rihMdY.

'stwzI' vwl jFdI hF qF Aus dy drF ivwc Klo ky ikMnF ikMnF icr pflkI vwl vyNhdI rihMdI hF. ijvyN myry leI ieh iewk 'ijLafrq-gfh' bx geI hovy.

qyrI Aus PyrI dI iewk iewk gwl myry mn dI 'skrIn' qy Esy qrF AuWkrI hoeI hY. jdoN qUM ‘lfs-eyNjls’ dy iksy ‘rfmdfs- afsLrm’ koloN lMGidaF myry leI iewk sunihrI pflkI Auphfr vjoN Aucycf lY ky afieaf sYN. qy asF dohF ny rl ky pUry do idn lgf ky Aus df iek iek purjLf joiVaf sI. qUM 'pfrts-ilst' pVHH ky sunihrI moVIaF hoeIaF 'pfeIpF' dy nfm dws irhf sYN, qy mYN qYnUM zwibaF ivwcoN AuhnF dI pihcfn krky kwlI kwlI nUM kwZ kwZ ky dyeI jf rhI sF. iPr mYN iewk iewk ‘afeItm’ nUM PVdI . qUM pyc kwsdf. awD-pcWD bxI vyK ky kdy qUM myrI ipWT qy sLfbfsL dI QfpI idMdf. kdy asIN QkyNvF lfhux leI gLlIcy qy hI klolF krdy iewk dUsry ivc aByd ho jFdy. qy svfd svfd hoeI df, myrf jI iewk pl leI vI qYQoN pry hox nUM nhI sI krdf.

pihlI pihlI vfr qyry hoTF ny, myrI jIB nfl rl ky jdoN romFs dI nvIN srgm CohI sI, ikMnf icr iewk ivsmfd BrI lihr myry qn bdn ivwc rumkdI mihsUs huMdI rhI.

'ies nUM PLrYNc ikw… kihMdy ny. ieh vI iewk klf hY'. qUM Es 'zYmnstrysLn' dI pirBfsLf dsidaF afiKaf. mYNN hsdI hsdI qyrIaF sUKm ‘bulH-CohF’ dy nsLy ivwc, AuhnF dIaF iksmF df anumfn lgFdI soc rhI sF. ik ‘mYN iek zfktr ho ky vI amrIkf dIaF kUMj glIaF dI rfs lIlf qoN anjfx hI rhI.'

'qUM qF ies klf ivc mfhr jfpdYN.” mYN pRsMsf krdI ny qyrI gwlH qy cUMZI vwZ ky ikhf qy asIN ikMnF icr hI hsdy rhy sF.

Pyr mYN afiKaf sI? ' pflkI ilaFdI sI qF koeI mUrqI vI lY afAuxI sI. ies ivc iksy dyvqf dI sQfpnf vI qF hoxI cfhIdI hY.'

'mYN afpxy vwloN iewk 'sLo-pIs' lY ky afieaf sF, 'itpIkl ErIaYNtl'. syl qy lwgf vyK ky. ies dy 'sYNpl’ df kls mYnUM bVf psMd afieaf sI. mYN qF iksy iesLt nUM pUjdf hI nhI. qUM iswKF dI kuVI ho ky vI pUjf ivwc ivsLvfs rKdI hYN? ikDry acfnk mukqI lYx bfry qF nhI socx lwg peI?' qUM gMBIr ho ky puWiCaf sI.

'ies bfry qF mYN ajy qwk kdy soicaf hI nhI .' pr EdoN hsdI hsdI dr- asl mYN ieh soc rhI sI ik asIN ijhVf pflkI joVn lwgy iek pfrsipRk smrpx df irsLqf joV bYTy hF, ieh vI qF iewk pUjf dI sLurUafq hI hoeI.

'qUM kdy pfT krdI ny nhI piVHaY? hsMidaF iKlMidaF vI mukqI iml skdI hY.' pqf nhI qUM myry mUMh qoN, myrI soc ƒ pVH ky kI aMdfjLf lfieaf sI.

'qYnUM ikvyN pqY?'

'iewk vfrIN ‘rjnIsL-purm’ dy iewk ‘pRyar- sYsLn’ ivwc mYN suixaf sI.'

hF swc, ikEN nf afpF ies pflkI df AupXog kr leIey. qy iksy 'pRIst' nUM bulf ky cfr BuaftxIaF lY leIey.” mYN Pyr afpxIaF hI socF dI lVI ivwc gLlqfn, sfzy irsLqy dy pIZy hox dI sMBfvnf bfry, acfnk puwC bYTI sF.

'jwst lfeIk dYt?' qUM cutkI vjf ky hws ipaf sI.

'hor kI?'

'nhI prmjIq. iewt iejL nft dYt isMpl. ivafh bVI ijLMmydfrI df mslf hY.'

'qy jy quhfzIaF KrmsqIaF kfrn myry kwpVy BIVy hoxy …[?' mYN sLrfrq nfl awK mfrky qyrf hwQ Guwt ky ikhf sI.

'kpiVaF df kI hY. nvyN af jfxgy.'

'qUM bVf clfk hYN. qYnUM gwl tflxI vfhvf afAuNdI hY.' mYN qyrI hfjLr jvfbI qy hwsI sF.

Xfd hY, Pyr jdoN qUM afiKaf?

'qusIN hI iensfPL kro. beI jy iksy ivsLvf imwqr dI JolI ivwc bYTI iek mynkf, apxI mD BrI qwkxI nfl Aus nUM koeI vrijq ryKf pfr krn leI Auqsfihq kry, qF Es ivcfry dy kI vws dI gwl hY.' mYN qyry vwl roick njLrF nfl vyNhdI socdI rhI. 'qUM iewk mihbUb hox dy nfl nfl iksy mhF kvI kflIdfs qoN Gwt nhI.'

ipCly hPLqy myrf vwzf bytf pflI imlx afieaf sI, apxI 'spYinsL' shylI 'mfrgrItf' nUM nfl lYky. sOhrI dI mfiKEN imwTI afvfjL, suPLny BrIaF awKF, iBwjy iBwjy hoT. bVI ipafrI joVI hY, dohF dI. sfrf ‘vIk-aYNz’ rOxk lwgI rhI. afpxy nF vrgI 'mfrgrItf-zirMk' mYnUM bnfxI isKf ky geI.bVI 'mYlo' jhI æ'knkOksLn' bxdI hY. hfey, jy qUM kdI pI ky vyKyN.

ikMnF icr sfzy dohF dIaF, ‘aylbm’ ivwc lwgIaF qsvIrF vyNhdI, pflI nfl sYn- msYnI huMdI rhI. sLfied Auh sfzy ‘aPLyar’ bfry jfnx dI iewCuk hovy. pflI Aus nUM qyry bfry dws irhf sI.

'mYN iehnF nUM imilaf hF. iehnF df myrI mMmI nfl kfPLI gUVH hY. pr nfnf jI nUM ieh irsLqf psMd nhI . ijs qoN pRBfvq ho ky mfmf jI vI hfmI Brn leI iqafr nhI hn.'

'pr pflI, rihxf qF iehnF dy nfl qyrI mF ny hY. Auh koeI bwcI qF nhI. Aus dIaF vI koeI loVF ny. Aus nUM mfnisk iqRpqI leI iewk…[.' Es kuVI dy inrCl mn aMdroN sfzy pirvfirk pRqIbMDF ivrwuD swc muc ivdroh dI Bfvnf Jlk rhI sI.

'mfrjI! hr siBafcfr ivwc koeI nf koeI AUxqfeI jLrUr huMdI hY. myry mMmI zYzI dy zfeIvors df kfrn vI sfzy vwzy vzyry hI sfbq hoey sn. zYzI pihlLF nYrobI rihMdy sn. eyQy af ky Auh 'klIn-sLyvz' ho gey. qy 'hYvI-zirMikMg' qy ‘smoikMg’ krn lwgy sn. myry nfnf jI nUM ieh iblkul psMd nhI sI. AuhnF df sfzy smfj ivwc iewk AuWcf sQfn hY. Auh iek mhfn kQf-vfck hn. Auh myrI mMmI df iksy gYr iswK nfl rihxf brdfsLq nhI kr skdy.'

'PLoto ivwc qF iehnF dy vfl vI qyry vFg hI lMmy jfpdy hn. qy dfhVI vI bVI rysLmI jhI lgdI hY. mYnUM qF inry ‘jIss krfeIst’ vFg idKfeI idMdy ny.'

'mfrj! aMkl df koeI Drm nhI hY. Auh Bgvfn rjnIsL dy sLrDflU ny aqy sB DrmF df afdr krdy ny. sfzy nfnf jI aksr icqfrdy rihMdy ny ik AuhnF ny myrI mF nUM pYdf kIqf, pfilaf, zfktr bxfieaf, ivafihaf. AuhnF anusfr ijvyN myrI mF ny AuhnF df krjL dyxf hY. Auh socdy ny ik Aus nUM hmysLf AuhnF dy afKy qy hI clxf pvygf. sfzI mF df idl sony df hY, insvfrQ. Auh iksy nUM apxy iksy kMm nfl duKI huMdf nhI vyK skdI. mYN ikMnI vfrI Aus nUM iekwl ivc aQrU kyridaF qwikaf hY. lgdY nfnf jI dy huMidaF Auh apxy jIvn sfQ bfry koeI vI PLYslf nhI lY sky gI. Auh sc muwc iek afdrsL bytI ho ky iek mhfn zfktr hY.'

Ausdy ivcfr sux ky myrf idl mfx nfl ikMnf Br igaf sI. mYN pryH bYTI ikMnf icr pRsMsk awKF nfl soc rhI sF. 'ieh swc muwc myrf bytf hY.'

hF swc iewk KusLI dI Kbr dws idaF, ikDry iPLkr krdf hovyN. qYnUM gey nUM cOQf mhInf ho cwilaY, qy myry kwpiVaF df mycf jLrf vI nhI bdilaf…[.

qyrI prmjIq'