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“Bfa jI qusIN vI ivrsy vFg …” qy AuWqr myry sMG ivwc Ps igaf. “Bfa jI, BolI df pihlf ipafr qF Ausdf afpxf toilLaf sI pr myrf…?”

“sLYlf smJx dI koisLs kr, ijMdgI nfl smJOqy krny hI pYNdy hn, Pyr asIN qyry doKI QoVo hF…qyrf nPf nuksfn soc ky hI asIN …”

“gLlq” sYLlf iclfeI. “qusIN myrf nPf nhIN soc rhy blik myrf pVwul bxfky CflLF mfrnIaF cfhuMdy ho. myry qy BolI ivwc koeI Prk nhIN Cwizaf qusIN vYrIAu! rMgdfr aYnkF lf ky jjLbfq dI isafhI iPwkI nhIN pY  jFdI.” sLYlf aj sfrf guwsf myry qy kwZ rhI sI.

“sLYlf BolI df qy kql sI qy asIN qyry leI…”

“kI ieh kql nhIN?” sYLlf ny myrI gwl ivwcoN kwtI. sony df sLihr ijwqx leI quhfzy kol koeI hiQafr nhIN? sONh gurU dI, mYN ispfhI vFg lVFgI, pr mYnUM hiQafr nf bxfAu. sMskfrF dI pOVI cVHky ijhVf cuMmx myry bwulHF qy Aukiraf igaf hY, Auhdf kI krogy?

“sLtap” mYN AubflLf KfDf.

“vIrf mYnUM aPsos hY, pr myrf ieh nMg qF qYnUM dyKxf hI pvygf, Jwlxf hI pvygf.”

mYN AuQoN AuWiTaf qy bfhr ilivMg rUm ivwc af ky soPy qy bYT igaf. mYnUM nhIN pqf sLYlf jo ids rhI sI Auh kI sI? iewk buwq myry sfhmxy KVHf sI. smyN dy klIry Ausdy lV nflL bMnHy jf rhy sn. hflfq df pfskU Ausdy vlvilaF dy jvfrBfty nUM ikvyN syk dy irhf sI. iewk aYsI qwkxI  ivwc kuwJ buJ irhf kuwJ jg irhf sI. ies jgmgfht ivcoN kuJ ikr vI irhf sI. ies ikr rhy df mYnUM aPsos sI, byhwd aPsos. ies ikr rhI mfsUmIaq qoN swKxI hoeI sYLlf df Qhu pfAuxf sOKf nhIN sI. iewk pwQr ho rhy irsLqy qoN sjfvt dI cfhq hI sfz pirvfr df pRCfvF hY. iesdy duaflLy asIN iek nvF swiBafcfr Ausfrnf hY.

mYN moZy CMzy, sLYlf dy aks nUM DuMDlfky vfhXfqI dy rfh pY igaf. iewk aYsf pYNzf pMGr irhf sI ijs ny sfry pirvfr ivwc sMcfr krnf sI. ies qoN munkr  hoky pirvfrk QMm nflL mwQf lfAuxf phfV nUM PUk mfrn dy brfbr sI. ‘suwky bFsF ivwc Puwl nhIN AWugdy.’ aYsf hI kuJ ikhf sI myry rUm-myt ny jdoN mYnUM mInf df nvyN sfl df kfrz afieaf sI. mYN kfrz idKf ky ikhf sI ‘aYh dyK lY, swuky bfgF ivwc vI Puwl iKVdy hn.’ ….

ipqf jI bfhr soPyL qy bYTy aKLbfr pUrI dI pUrI KolI bYTy sn. pVH rhy sn jF afpxy afp nUM lukf rhy sn, mYN nhIN jfxdf pr ies kfgjLI kMD ny mYnUM skUn jrUr idwqf. aYsy mOky ipqf jI nflL myrI awK nhIN imlL skdI sI. kuwJ guafcf sI, ijsdI BflL mYN qF kr irhf sI, Auh kr rhy sn? mYN kih nhIN skdf. ieh XkInn hI iewk GtIaf ijhI buJfrq sI. mYN awKF mIt leIaF, kuJ dyKx leI, mYN dyiKaf, iewk hnyrf jyhf, ijs ivwc myrf nfm itmitmf irhf hY, ivjY isMG… srdfr… AuWcf Kfndfn… aYsI srdfrI; ijsnUM mYN kdy vI smJ nhIN sikaf.

koeI hvylI nhIN bcI, koeI inwkIaF nfnksLfhI iewtF nhIN, bs asIN srdfr hF. aYsIaF iewtF jo mn qy Bfr dyeI bYTIaF hn. Auh iewtF jd afps ivwc tkrfAuNdIaF hn; AusfrI leI, qF AunHF dI ibVk myrI kMnI pYNdI rihMdI hY. iksy vI KusLI-gLmI vylLy ieh iewtF aMgVfeI lYNdIaF hn. ienHF df Ausr irhf vjUd, myrf sfh Gutdf hY. BrvIaF muwCF qy jflLIdfr dfVHIaF vflLIaF myry bjLurgF dIaF PotoaF AunHF kMMDF nUM qrsdIaF hn ijnHF ny ajy Ausrnf hY. icVIaF cihchfAuNdIaF hn qy pukfr-pukfr ky kihMdIaF hn, AWuTo, Ausfro mihl srdfro, ijnHF `qy bihky asIN quhfzy sohly gf skIey.  mDfxIaF dy irVkx dI afvfjL ivwc afpxI afvfjL rlLf ky koeI gIq gf skIey. icVIaF dIaF ieh avfjLF myry bfp ny suxIaF hn, rwbI Purmfn vFg. AuhnUM ielhfm ho igaf hY ik ieh icVIaF swc bol rhIaF hn. pr ies swc df miraf swp myry glLoN nhIN lihMdf. sLfied ieh swp mYN hor nf glL ivwc rwK skF.

‘mYN kYnyzf ivwc rihMdI hF…, mYN kYnyzf ivwc rihMdI hF…,’ sYLlf dy hQOVy myry isr ivwc vwj rhy hn. ‘myry kolL hor vI keI hwl hn. jMm-jMm pfAu pINGF, …myry BrfvF dI vyl vDy, …Bfa jI rb df vfsqf jy mYN sfrI Aumr kmfeI krFgI, quhfzf Gr PRI hox qwk do jfbF vI krdI rhFgI pr myry rxbIr nUM myry kolLoN nf Koho. rxbIr myrf ikhf nhIN moVygf, dflL rotI dI muQfjI qoN bfad…, bs rwb df vfsqf jy ieh kihr nf kmfAu. afpxy bolF dI lfj rwKo… mYN quhfzI imMnq krdI hF, afpxI BYx dI JolLI Auh awg nf pfAu…, iehdy nflLoN cMgf hY myrf glL hI Guwt idAu qy AunHF rfhF dI rfhI bxf idAu ijnHF rfhF `qy BolI KloqI hY. Ausdy glLy qy AuNglLF dy nIly insLfn mYN sihlf dyvFgI qy Auh myry awQrU pUMJ dyvygI.’

mYnUM lwgf ijvyN sLYlf ny cIk mfrI hovy, mYN Gbrf ky awKF KolHIaF. cIk ijvyN rsoeI ivwc vI geI hovy, ijwQy bI jI cfh bxf rhy sn qy ilivMg rUm ivwc bYTy mohx isMG dI aKLbfrI kMD vI hwQoN srk geI. mYN ajy soc hI irhf sI ik ieh cIk sI jF myrf vihm, jdoN srdfr mohx isMG dI Bbk sfrf Gr ihlf geI, “iehnUM cuwp krf lAu, nhIN qy zwkry krky hrIky pwqx  roVH afAUN. vwzI isafxI nUM. aKy, mYN iewQy nhIN AWuQy vwsxf sfzI axK nflLoN kYnyzf awj vwzf ho igaf. aKy kwlH jMmI BUqnI qy isivaF `c awD. ieh sfnUM bxfAU pFzI, aKy mYN rxbIr nUM swdxf…, Auh do tikaF dy bMidaF nUM kYnyzf swdFgy, iehdy krky? ijnHF kolLoN sfzI dihlIjL dI sLfn vI nf JwlI geI? kI PLrk pYNdf sI jy cfr idn gyVf lf ky sfzy rupeIey eyDr-EDr kr idMdy. iehnUM smJf ky rwKo jy bMdy dy quKLm ho qy.” ipqf jI aKLbfr suwt ky bfhr ho gey.

mYN rsoeI ivwc jf ky lwgf bI jI nUM avf-qvf bolx. bI jI jfxdy sn ik AunHF `qy ibjlI izwgxI hI izwgxI hY. ipqf jI sfhmxy bolx dI iksy ’c ihMmq nhIN sI. bcpn qoN hI sfzy sfiraF AuWqy aYsf Cwpf ipaf sI ik bfl-bwcy vflLy ho ky vI ipqf jI awgy sfzf sfh sUiqaf jFdf sI. Coty huMidaF qoN ipqf jI dy dbikaF awgy sfzf ipsLfb inklL jFdf sI. keI vfrI bygLfnIaF DIaF sfhmxy hoeI sfzI byiejLqI, sfzI mrdfngI nUM llkfrdI. sLYlf dy pfey rwPV ny ipqf jI dy afpy isrjy sMskfrF nUM llkfiraf hoieaf sI.

gwl hPLiqaF qoN irwJ rhI sI. sLYlf mrdF vFg moiZaF `qy ijMLmyvfrIaF df Bfr cuwkI qIrQoN qIrQ afpxy swc dI KLYr mMg rhI sI. kdy ieh qIrQ mF dI mmqf df kvc bx ky sLYlf dy mn nUM Zfrs idMdf qy jdoN ieh kvc mUMh moV lYNdf, bfbl dIaF glLIaF sYLlf leI qIrQ bx jFdIaF. jdoN sLYlf dy nMgy pYr ienHF glLIaF ivwc iKwlry kMkrF nfl iCwly jFdy qy Auh ienHF lhU-luhfn pYrF nUM cuwk ky ies qrF sfPL krdI ijsnUM sfry vyK skx.

BrfvF df Brm tuwtdf qF sLYlf hor qVPdI. AusdI ieh qVPL Aus pfk supny nUM sLrimMdf krdI ijsnUM awKF ivwc vwsfeI, isMLgfrI ijMLdgI nflL sLYlf gutkdI rhI sI. AusdIaF inrCl awKF Aus supny dy ievjL ivwc pirvfr dIaF nIhF ivwc afpxI imhnq df syk pf rhIaF sn, isrP iewk JUMgy dI afs ivwc. rxbIr nflL vwKrf aflHxf pfAux qoN pihlF Auh cfhuMdI sI ik Auhdf aflLf-duaflLf ilsLk jfvy. Auh rfh ijMnHF qoN rxbIr ny lMGxf hY,  nUM suMBiraf jfvy, drI ivC jfvy (lflIaF mfrdI) Aus phy `qy… ijs phy ny rxbIr dy pYr cuMmxy sn. cfry pfsy PwulF dI KuuLsLbo hovy. sLYlf bI bIj rhI sI iewk iewQy qy iewk AWuQy. Auh cfhuMdI sI bhfr ruwqy ieh Puwl iKVx qy DuaFKy vkq kdy cyqy vI nf rihx.

rxbIr iewk aYsI KusLbo sI, ijsnUM sLYlf dy iKaflF ivwc pihlI vfr iKVdI zozI vFg ipqf jI ny hwQIN isMijaf sI. sLYlf bfgLI nhIN sI. Ausny qy cVHdI Aumry Auho sMK vjfieaf ijsnUM mfipaF ny afp Ausdy hwQ ivwc PVfieaf sI. Ausny sMK ivwc sMiDaf dI lflI Gol ky afpxy idl idmfg ivwc vsf leI. rwjy-puwjy Gr df rOsLn icrfgL rxbIr aMqF df sohxf-sunwKf, pVHn ivwc huisLafr qy nyk nOjvfn srdfr mohn isMG dI afpxI psMd sI jo Ausny rsmF pUrIaF krky afpxI DI sLYlf leI JolLI awz ky mMigaf sI.

“sLYlf qyrI kuVmfeI pwkI ho geI”, ieh sunyhf mYN afp sLYlf nUM idwqf sI. ismtI sLrmfeI sLYlf myry glL cMbV geI ijvyN ieh irsLqf Aus leI svrg df JUtf hovy. sLYlf Auysy vylLy ieh KLbr dyx leI BolI dy Gr AuWz geI. sLYlf rxbIr dI Poto nUM ihwk nflL lfeI kYnyzf afeI.

ipqf jI ny cfh df Guwt Brky kwp tybl `qy rwiKaf qy mYnUM afvfjL mfrI Auh ivjY afh jLrf tYlIPon qy GumfvIN. sLnIvfr df dupihrf qy tYlIPon… gwl myrI smJ ivwc nhIN af rhI sI. Auh mYnUM Pon krn leI AudoN hI kihMdy sn jdoN aMgryjLI bolx dI loV hovy. pMjfbI Pon qF Auh afp hI inbyVdy sn. jdoN mYN kolL igaf qF Auh mYnUM iewk mYtrImonIal df kflm idKf rhy sn jo iksy pMjfbI aKLbfr dI kitMg sI “jwt iswK lVkf, Aumr qIh sfl, bI[ey[ pfs, jo iekwlf hI ieMzIaf ivwc hY aqy bfkI sfrf pirvfr kYnyzf ivwc hY. lVky df iewk Brf kYnyzIan ieMmIgrFt hY jo ik lVkI dy iksy irsLqydfr nUM kYnyzf mMgvf skdf hY. lVkI kYnyzf dI ieMmIgrFt aqy sohxI hoxI cfhIdI hY. ijLafdf jfxkfrI leI hyT ilKy Pon `qy sMprk kIqf jf skdf hY.”

mYN ikhf, “ipqf jI ieh qy koeI ivafh dI iesLiqhfrbfjLI hY.” mYnUM Jwb dy ky boly, “mYN qYnUM Pon krn leI ikhY, qyrI slfh nhIN puwCI.”

“afKLr gwl df pqf qF lwgy ik kfhdy leI ies sOdybfjLI leI Pon krnf hY.” myrI dlIl df suafl srdfr mohn isMG dy isMGfsn df pfvf ihlfAux lwgf. Auh lwgpwg cIk hI pey, “sLYlf qoN isvf hor kOx hY Gr ivwc ivhfAux vflf?”

mYN ikhf, “pr Auh qF mMgI hoeI hY afpF qF rxbIr dy kfgjL Brny hn.”

Auh boly, “hux mYnUM qyry vrgy PukiraF koloN slfhF lYxIaF pYxgIaF? qyrI qIvIN ny qyrf byVf grk kr idwqY. sLrm hXf nF dI cIjL ies GroN gLfieb hI ho rhI hY. Auey kMjr idAu, ajy mYN jInf, jdoN mr igaf kr ilAu mMn mnOqIaF. jIhny myrI gwl nhIN mMnxI Auh byswLk afpxI itMz POVHI cuwk ky iewQoN dPLf ho skdf hY? nflLy ienHF nUM rwKo, inafixaF dy poqVy bdlo, jfiedfdF bxfky rwKo qy nflLy iehnF dIaF bVHkF suxo.” mYN hwQ ivwc PiVaf kwp cwuk ky kMD nflL mfiraf.

myrI bIvI myrI bFh PV ky mYnUM aMdr lY geI qy bolI, “kmlLy ho gey ho qusIN? Gr ipqf jI dy nfm hY…. kuJ qy sLrm kro, kuJ qy iKafl kro. afKr sYLlf jy quhfzI BYx hY qF  AunHF dI vI qy kuVI hY.”

mYN TMzf ijhf ho ky bfhr af igaf qy boilaf, “ipqf jI DIrj qoN kMm lvo, Gr ivwc slfh msLvrf krnf koeI gYLr vfjb qF nhIN. nflLy sLYlf dI slfh qoN ibnf….”

“Auey sLYlf kOx huMdI hY, myry Gr ivwc dKLl dyx vflLI? awj srdfr mohn isMG, ijhdI KVpYNcI qoN ibnF ipMz dy psLUU vI pUC nhIN mfrdy, Auh kwlH dI CokrI qoN slfh puwCUgf? Auh afpxI mF qoN vI ijLafdf isafxI ho geI? quhfzI mF ny kdy mYnUM pwuiCaf nhIN; myry hr hukm awgy Puwl cVHfAuNdI hY, iesy krky sfry KLfndfn ivwc iehdI srdfrI hY qy qusIN mUrK afpxI mF qoN ijLafdf isafxy ho gey? myry nflL bihsoNgy? Auey mYN ies Gr df vzyrf, myry nflL sfrIaF brkqF. pwuqrf, jnfnIaF mgr nhIN lwgI df, ienHF nUM pfT pVHfAu ik ikvyN srdfrI sLfn kfiem rwKxI hY. Auey koVmF vwzf ho jfAU qF afpF dI sLfn vDU, BUaf df twbr af jfAU qF quhfzIaF hI bfhvF vDxIaF. jnfnIaF nUM hmysLf afpxy jUTy BFizaF ivwc aMn KvfeIdf bwilaf. cwl bMdy df pwuq bxky tYlIPon Gumf. qy jy qUM gwl nhIN krnI qy Gumf ky mYnUM PVf dy mYN afpy qor lAUN gwl sfzI kuVI qF sony vrgI af.”

ieho jyhf myrf ipqf hY sUrj dy Gyry vFg AuWcf-nIvF pr afpxy afp ivwc sMpUrn sLKLsIaq, hmysLf drusq. myry bfp dy ivcfrF dy kdy vI pRCfvyN nf huMdy. Auhdy sUrj Auhdy aMdr AuWgdy qy AunHF AWugy sUrjF df qfp sfry aflLy-duaflLy nUM JulsfAuNdf. Auhdy ivcfrF nUM slHfb df Korf lwgdf kdy iksy vyiKaf nhIN, suixaf nhIN, mihsUisaf nhIN. glLI guaFZ qy vyhVy vihVky vI qRihMdy. mF sfzI qF imwtI dI mfDo. ijsdf kMm afpxy pqI dI Ausqq ivwc isrP icmty CYxy KVkfAuxf hI hY. rfq idn df Prk bfpU dwsdf sfzI mF nUM. rfq kdoN muwkI qy idn kdoN ciVHaf iehdy leI AuhnUM sUrj nf vyKxf pYNdf. sLYlf dI mmqf leI pukfr vI Ausdf kuJ suafr nf skI.

pMjfbI dy kfiedy qoN lY ky gurduafry ivwc mwQf tykx dIaF pYVF myry bfp ny AuWkrIaF. asIN iqMn Brf, do BYxF hF. blbIro sB qoN vwzI hY. blbIro df irsLqf kYnyzf ho igaf qy asIN mgry mgr kYnyzf phMuc gey. asIN cfry kMmF kfrF qy jFdy qy sfry hI cYWk ilaf ky ipqf jI dy hwQ `qy rwKdy. idnF ivwc hI zfAUn pymYNt dy ky asIN Gr lY ilaf. vfro-vfrI asIN iqMno ivafhy gey iqMny ivafh ipqf jI dI pwg dy lV suafr ky hoey. gwl hux sLYlf dI rih geI sI ijhdI mMg quVvfAux df jLor lwgf hoieaf sI.

ibwt-ibwt rxbIr dI Poto vwl ivhMdI ny ieh shfrf vI gvf ilaf, jdoN iewk idn ipqf jI ny Prym smyq Poto gfrbyj ivwc vgfh mfrI. zubdI qrdI ny mYnUM qIlf smJ ilaf. afpxy GulLy hoey sMMDUr dI KLusLbo myry nwk Qly kr idwqI. ivcfrI ny isrijaf supnf Guwt ky PVnf cfihaf. mr jfxI ny afpxy-afp nUM bMdy dI jUn ivcfr ilaf.

mYN sLYlf qoN iqMn sfl vwzf hF. supny mYN vI ley sn. pr ipqf jI dI dihsLq ny myry supny jIx nf idwqy qy mInf vwloN ipwT moV kyy nisLaF df zwt pwt idwqf. zwt BfvyN aPLIm dI zwbI df hovy jF sLrfb dI boql df, Aus Aumr ivwc myry leI koeI mfanf nhIN sI rwKdf. jyboN KflI ivjY df mylL Aus ivrsy nflL ho igaf jo iewk Twg sI qy TwgI mfr ky pIxf Ausdf sLugl sI. Pyr ieho sLugl Auhdf rojLgfr bx igaf.

ilivMg rUm ivwc bYiTaF myrIaF awKF ny bycfrgI jLfhr kIqI. mYN njLr AuTf ky dyiKaf ies kmry ivwc iksy cIjL dI vI Gft nhIN sI. cIjLF vwl dyKky koeI nhIN kih skdf sI ik ies Gr dy pRfxI iksy QoV dy muhqfj hn. kImqI cIjLF nflL bdobdI dI sjfvt ivwc ikqy-ikqy jjLbfqI inwG vI sI. sLYlf dy hwQIN bxfey AWun dy hYNgr Cwq nflL ltk rhy sn. icwtI AuWn ivwc lfl sUhf rMg mYnUM ies gwl df aihsfs krf irhf sI ik koeI hY ijsdIaF AumMgF swjrIaF sn. jnm idn dy pfty hoey BkfinaF dy mUMh ajy qwk Cwq dI lfeIt nflL ltk rhy sn. ikqy koeI aYsI morI sI ijs ivwcoN inklL rhI iqKyrI KusLkI sfry Gr nUM byarfm kr rhI sI.

ieh kI sI jo sFJf sI sfzy pirvfr qy ivrsy dy pirvfr ivwc? asIN sB kuJ huMdy hoey vI sLYlf dy jjLbfq df kql kr rhy sF qy Auh ikhf zr sI jo ivrsy ivwc bYTf sI. iqMn DIaF Auhdy iekwly dIaF hI qF nhIN sn. kYsI lIlHf rcfAuNdf sI qy Aus lIlHf ivwc BolI dy armfn ikqnI afsfnI nflL kql kr idwqy gey.

 bfbU mdn dy kfrKLfny df njLfrf myrIaF awKF awgy GuMm igaf. ivrsy ny motr sfeIkl stYNz `qy lfeI qy mdn vwl ho quiraf. mdn Auhdy goizaF nUM CUhx leI Juikaf. ivrsy ny Auhdy isr `qy hwQ rwK ky asLIrvfd idwqf. ivrsf mdn dy ipwCy qy mYN ivrsy dy ipwCy, asIN kfrKLfny dy aMdr phuMc gey. cfry pfsy hnHyrf hI sI. bhuq mwDm rOsLnI ivwc mdn iewk nuwkr vwl ho igaf ijwQy kfrKfny dy myn sivwc sn. myn sivwcF dy duaflLy keI Dfrimk PotoaF sn qy iewk aflLy ivwc dIvf blL irhf sI. PotoaF dy Qwly kMD dy cIr ivwc awgrbwqIaF df guwCf jlL irhf sI.

mdn ny ikhf, “bfbf jI myhr kro, quhfzI myhr qoN bgYr ieh kfrKfnf bMd ho irhf hY. bcf lAu afpxy bwcy nUM.” ivrsy dI grdn cfry pfsy GuMmx lwgI. Ausdy awKF dIaF puqlIaF nfc kr rhIaF sn. mdn ny sLrfb dI boql myjL `qy rwKI hoeI sI. sB nUM pqf sI ik pIr bfbf jI sLrfb dy rsIey sn. AunHF nUM KusL krnf jLrUrI sI. ivrsy ny glfs ivwc sLrfb pfeI qy iewko Guwt ivwc aMdr suwt leI qy cIk ijhI mfr ky isr nflL ajIb hrkqF krn lwg ipaf qy boilaf, “mYny qumko pihcfn lIaf hY. qyry ko Xh jgfh CoVnI pVygI vrnf myry sy burf koeI nf hogf” qy nflL hI ivrsy ny jyb ivwcoN iqwKf cfkU kwZ ky afpxy Kwby hwQ dy aMgUTy nUM cIr ilaf. KUn prl-prl vgx lwgf. Aus KUnI hoey hwQ nflL ivrsy ny myn sivWc aOn kr idwqf. sfry kfrKfny dIaF vwzIaF lfeItF jg peIaF. myry vfsqy sB anoKf sI. ivrsy ny hor sLrfb pIqI qy ajIbo-grIb gyVy kZdf iewk kursI `qy bih igaf qy pMj ku imMt awKF muMdx qoN bfad nfrml ho igaf. sfnUM pwuCx lwgf ik pIr bfbf kI kihMdy sI? bfkI bcdI sLrfb ivrsy ny cuwkI qy bfhr vl qur ipaf. mYN qy mdn agV-ipCV. rfh ivwc iewk jgHf Kloqy. ivrsy dy aMgUTy ivwcoN ajy vI KUn irs irhf sI. Ausny boql df Zwkx KolHky QoVHI ijhI sLrfb aMgUTy `qy pfeI qy bfkI dI mUMh nUMMUMM lf ky inZflL ijhf ho igaf. 

ivrsy dI mihmf hOlLI-hOlLI iKwlrn lwgI iksy df kMm ho igaf qy iksy df nf hoieaf. ijsdf ho igaf Ausnyy awgy ds pf idwqI qy ivrsy df motr sfeIkl jgHf-jgHf GuMmx lwgf.

ijAuN-ijAuN lokF df iekwT vwDx lwgf iqAuN-iqAuN ivrsy dI sLrfb vI vDx lwgI. pIr hurIN ivrsy ivwc qury hI rihMdy . ivrsy df Aucfrx ihMdI AurdUU-hox lwgf. Auh Buwl hI jFdf ik kdoN Auh ivrsf hY, kdoN Auh pIr bfbf. cubfry df lYNtr nvF pY cuwkf sI. Gr dy vI cuwp sn. iewk ajIb sMnfty ivwc Gr dy vI gwPy smytI jFdy sn. pIr bfby nUM KusL krn leI ivrsf afpxy hwQ nflL Gumfky korVf afpxy sLrIr `qy mfrdf. nMgI ipwT `qy lfsF pY jFdIaF, KUn isMm AuTdf pr ivrsy ivwc bYTf pIr bfbf pYWg qy pYWg cVHfeI jFdf qy ivrsy dI pkV korVy `qy hor pIzI ho jFdI.

jdoN lok cly jFdy qF bfkI bcdI sLrfb ruupeIey igxn qoN bfad ivrsy df bfpU vI lf lYNdf.

Aus idn kihr df idn sI. mYN Aus kql hoeI iensfnIaq df njLfrf dyK ky kMbx lwg ipaf sI. kMbdIaF lwqF nflL jdoN Gr viVaf qF sLYlf myry mwQy lwgI. Auh KusL sI AusdI awzI jLmIn `qy nhIN lwgdI sI.

ijvyN gulfb dI zozI nUM sUrj dI pihlI  ikrn nyy qwikaf hovy. aYsf hI aihsfs cuwkI iPrdI sI sLYlf.

myrI soc ivwc acfnk iewk Jrnfht iPr geI, ieh kYsI bdsLgnI sI, ikqy sLYlf…, nhIN qy mYN sLYlf nUM jLorI afpxy nflL lf ilaf. nhIN nhIN…, sLYlf nhIN mr skdI. mYN qYnUM mrn nhIN idaFgf…, mYN qyrI rwiKaf krFgf. myry qrl hoey jjLbfq vyKky sLYlf dIaF awKF ivwc pfxI af igaf. bolI,“Bfa jI quhfzI qbIaq qy TIk hY?” myrIaF awKF awgy BMbUqfry nwc rhy sn.

mYnUM ieMJ lwgf ijvyN sYLlf nUM DOx qoN PVky koeI JMjoV irhf hY,[[[[[[[ ieh kOx hY. sLYlf jfn bcfAux leI lwqF-bfhvF mfrdI hvf ivwc qYr rhI hY ijvyN kih rhI hovy, “vIrf mYnUM bcf lY mYnUM sfh nhIN af irhY, myry nwk ivwc pqf nhIN kI Ps igaf hY.” myrI hflq vyKky sLYlf dIaF awKF ivwc awQrU af gey. acfnk sLYlf nUM Cwz ky mYN pytI `qy ivCy kwpVy nUM PV ky ieqnI joLr dI cIk mfrI ik sfry Gr dy myry duaflLy iekwTy ho gey. ipqf jI ny ikhf, “sLrfbI hoey nUM suaf idAu, svyry puwiCAu jo pwuCxf hY. afpxy ipAu dy hfx nfl quiraf iPrdf. sLrm nhIN afAuNdI iehnUMUM .”

mYN afpxy mMjy `qy lMmf ipaf Aus drdnfk hfdsy bfry soc irhf sI jo GMtf ku pihlF hI vfpiraf sI. ivrsy dI Gr vflLI pwtIaF rwK rhI sI. BolI buKfr nfl qp rhI sI. mYN pwuiCaf, “BfbI jI koeI dvf dfrU kIqI hY jF nhIN?” Auh boly, “ivjY duafeI qF deI jf rhI hF pr buKfr tuwtx df nfm hI nhIN, bs iesy qrF bysurq peI hY. Bfa qyrf qF hor hI kMmF `c AulLiJaf ‘aKy pIr dI cOkI BrnI hY awj.’ pr kuVI vwl vI rqf iDafn dyxf cfhIdf. muMzf piVHaf iliKaf, nOkrI lwgf hoieaf. cwl Auh jfxy awj kwlH sfry hI krdy ny, kI hoieaf jy kuVI ny afp pisMd kr ilaf. aKy nhIN iesny myrI nwk vwZ idwqI hY. afh jyhVf rojL DmwcV pYNdf bYTk ivwc iehdy nflL iehdI nwk nUM kuwJ nhIN huMdf. mYN qy vIrf duKI ho geI hF. myrf qy awj vIrf pqf nhIN ikAuN  idl GtI jf irhf, ijvyN koeI axhoxI hox vflLI hovy. mYN qy ikMnI vfrI ikhf pIr bfby nUM mwQf tyko sfzy nf viVaf kry. vyK KF afpxf kI hfl kr lYNdy af. awj kihMdy sI pIr bfby nUM pwuC ky BolI df koeI PLYslf krFgy. BolI vI afs lfeI bYTI hY sLfied pIr bfbf AusdI hI sux lvyy.”

bYTk ivwc ho hwlf hoieaf qF mYN kfhlLI nflL bYTk vwl hoieaf. ivrsf ipMzf nMgf krI hwQ ivwc korVf PVI KVHf sI. sLrfb dI boql mMjy Qwly peI sI. kolL hI stIl df iglfs ipaf sI. ivrsy dIaF awKF dwsdIaF sn ik Ausny awj kfPLI cVHf leI sI. cfr pMj buVHIaF brUhF dy aMdr pwbF Bfr bYTIaF sn. “pIr bfby ko somrs cfhIey.” ivrsy ny llkfrf mfrky ikhf. ivrsy qoN Coty nyy stIl dy iglfs ivwc sLrfb pf ky dy idwqI. ijsnUM ivrsf iewko sfhy pI igaf qy nflL hI korVf iewk hwQ nflL Gumf ky afpxy ipMzy `qy mfrn lwgf. “hmy sB pqf hY hm sMglL mfr-mfr kr qyry ko Pnfh kr dyNgy, qUny eyk kMjk ko BI nhIN CoVf. afj Xf qU mrygf Xf mYN.” ies qrF kridaF AuWcI-AWcI boldf ivrsf boql vwl ahulLdf qy afp hudrf ijhf Guwt Br ky iPr sMglL GumfAux lwg pYNdf. pIr ny hukm idwqf ik BolI nUM iewQy ilafE, Ausƒ iksy dI pkV hY. myrf mwQf Txikaf ik awj jLrUr kuJ anrQ hox vflLf hY, mYN ikhf,“ivrsy bfjL af jf mYN BoolI iewQy nhIN afAux dyxI.” ivrsf boilaf,“qYnUM kI pqf DIaF dy duwK.” hYN, ieh kI! ivrsf pMjfbI boldf ipaf sI. ivrsy ny hukm idwqf,“jfE bwcI ko lfE aBI Auskf ielfj kryNgy.” BolI inwGI  rjfeI ivwcoN AuWTky afpxI mF dy nflL inwky-inwky kdm BrdI bYTk ivwc af geI. AusdIaF awKF ivwc koeI cmk sI ijvyN pIr bfby hurIN huxy koeI PuLrmfn krngy ik iehnUM iehdf ipafr bKLsL idwqf jfey. ivrsy ny BolI nUM mF dy klfvy ivwcoN iKwc ky grdn qoN PV ky hvf ivwc iKlfr ky ies qrF CMizaf ik mYnUM JuxJuxI af geI. “pIr qyry ko ies bwcI kf pICf nhIN krny dyNgy, jfqf hY Xf dojLK kI afg lfAUN?” BKdI BolI ny awKF KolH ky afpxy bfp vwl dyiKaf ijvyN dIvy dI afKLrI loa AuWpr AuWTI hovy qy nflL hI BolI dI DOx iewk pfsy AuWlr geI. pIr ny smJ ilaf ik jo hoxf sI ho igaf, Ausny BolI AusdI mF vwl Dwk idwqI. mF ny jdoN dyiKaf ik kuVI ivwwc koeI ihljul nhIN Auh kuVI nUM klfvy ivwc Br ky vyhVy vwl lY geI.

bYTk ivwc pIr df crKf hOlLI hoieaf hI sI ik vyhVy ivwc hfl-duhfeI mwc geI. ivrsf jfxdf sI ik BolI mr geI hY. hwQ ivwc PiVaf sMglL Qwly izwg ipaf. mYN ivrsy nUM sdf leI iPtkfr ky afpxy Gr af igaf. pMj sfl ho gey ivrsy nUM iPtkfiraF.

kYnyzf ivwc bxfey Gr ivwc sLYlf dI myhnq, Auhdy jjLbfq df muhFdrf juafb mMg irhf sI; Aus iPtkfr df, jo kdy mYN iksy zry hoey mrd nUM idwqI sI. sLYlf df sMjoieaf supnf Ausdf afpxf nhIN sI blik ieh mxky qF asIN afp Ausdy glL ivwc pfey sn. pMj sfl qoN sLYlf dI rUh iksy nflL bgLlgIr ho rhI sI qy awj AuhnF ieqrF dI KuLsLbo vtfeI jf rhI sI. ieh qF jIx df hwk Kohx vflLI gwl sI. do hPLiqaF qoN roo-ro ky sLYlf ny afpxIaF awKF sujf leIaF sn. supinaF dIaF AuDVIaF qfrF dI guMJlL ny sLYlf awgy myrf isr invfieaf hoieaf sI. ijLMdgI ivwc pihlI vfr mYN kMbdIaF lwqF nflL afpxy bfp awgy boilaf, vfsqy pfey qy iewQoN qwk vI kih idwqf ik afpxy vfady dI qF lfj rwKo.

ipqf jI ny sfPL hI kih idwqf sI ik kuVI dI ijLd PjLUl hY. ivafh hI krnf hY, mYN ijwQy mrjLI krF. mYN ipE hF ijWQy mrjLI qorF iksy df koeI mqlb nhIN. jy mYN rukfvt KVHI kIqI qF mYN kYnyzf qy ieMzIaf dovF jfiedfdF qoN hwQ Do bYTFgf. myrI hfrI sfrI ksr vI inwklL geI jdoN myrI pqnI ny myryy KfhmKfh lwq aVfAux `qy AuNglL rwK idwqI. mYN cuwp vwt leI. sLYlf nflL awK imlfAux dI myrI ihMmq nhIN sI.

iesLiqhfr ivwc drj sI ik lVky df iewk Brf kYnyzIan ieMmIgrFt hY. ipqf jI df ivcfr sI ik inMdr iewDr inklL afvygI aqy nflL hI sfrf pirvfr vI iewDr af jfvygf. BYx-Brf qy iewk dUjy dIaF bfhvF huMdy hn. sfrI dunIaF puwTy-iswDy qrIikaF nflL ieDr af rhI hY, asF qF iPr vI koeI gLlq kMm nhIN krnf. kuVI ivafhux Xog hY ikqy nf ikqy qF ivafhuxI hI hY sMjog qF DuroN hI ilKy jFdy hn asF qF kfr ivhfr hI krnf hY.

ipqf jI dy Pon krn qoN bfad dUsrI iDr qF KihVy hI pY geI. afey sI imlx vfsqy cfh pfxI qoN bfad gwlF cwl peIaF. pMjfb dy hflfq qoN huMidaF hoieaF gwlF-gwlF ivwc ieh gwl vI inKr geI ik Auh pirvfr vI sfzy vFg piVHaf iliKaf aqy agFh vDU iKaflF vflLf sI. bVy KuwlHy-zuwlHy suBfa vflLy aqy nUMhF DIaF ivwc PLrk nf krn vflLy. dfj-dhyj nMU qF lfhnq smJdy sn. gwl isry cVHdI vyKky boly “hF jI, sfzI DI nUM bulfE.” mYN ikhf “sLYlf qy jI awj pfrt-tfeIm kMm `qy geI hY, qusIN kwlH af jfE.”

“klH qy jI asIN ibjLI hF, iksy dy aPLsos `qy jfxf, qusIN iewdF kro afh lE vIh zflr; sfzy vwloN sLYlf nUM dy  idE, sLYlf awj qoN sfzI hoeI.” pwk-Twk hox qoN bad boly, “qusIN inMdr dIaF PotoaF vgYrf mMgvf lE, sfzf ibMdr spONsr kr dyvygf qy dsMbr ivWc dovyN pirvfr jfky ivafh kr dyvFgy.”

mYN soc irhf sI vkq pY ky sLYlf afpy prc jfvygI. ilKI nUM kOx tflL skdf hY, ijs idn Auh afpxy aqIq nfloN tuwt jfvygI afpy jIxf vI iswK lvygI. AudfsIaF qF ijLMdgI df ihwsf hn. kdy ieh AudfsIaF ruvfAuNdIaf hn qy kdyy-kdy ieh nvyN irsLiqaF nUM vI rusLnfAuNdIaF hn. aflLf-duaflLf qF iehnF rOsLnIaF nflL hI dyiKaf jf skdf hY. dsMbr ivwc asIN ieMzIaf cly gey. suhfg dy gIq qy GoVIaF gfAuNdIaF aOrqF ivwc iGrI sLYlf cuwp sI, qy bhuq hI Gor cuwp ivwcoN jdoN kdy Auh hwsdI qF myrf mn pwiCaf jFdf. Auuhdy cyhry  `qy bdldy rMg vyKky myrf aMdr kMb jFdf. ies twut-Bwj ivwc aihsfsF dI mOq ho rhI sI qy KLfndfn dIaF BrvIaF iqEVIaF dI ijwq. sLYlf myrI gwl hux nhIN kwt rhI sI ijvyN rxbIr hux Ausdy idl idmfg ivwcoN inwklL igaf hovy jF iPr Auhdy idl idmfg `qy bYTy sMMskfr ieMny BIVy ho rhy hox ijs ivwc Ausdy afpxy aihsfsF leI koeI QF hI nf rhI hovy.

kfrz vMzy gey qy sLYlf iewk kfrz lYky myyry kolL afeI. iekFq ivwc sLYlf df sfhmxf krn dI myrI ihMmq nhIN sI. kfrz dyK ky mYN smJ igaf ik sLYlf mYnUM ikhVy iemiqhfn ivwc pfAux jf rhI hY. nhIN-nhIN, ieh nhIN ho skdf iehnUM qF sfrIaF zorF qoVnIaF pYxgIaF. mYN kfhlLI idKfAux lwgf. “Bfa jI ieh swdf qusIN jLrUr hI dyxf hY.” mYN kMbdy hwQF nflL kfrz PiVaf. sLYlf kfrz PVf ky, ipwCy muVI aqy qyjLI nflL clI geI. mYN kfrz iswDf kIqf aqy piVHaf ‘ivrsf isMG aYNz PYimlI’. mYnUM ieMJ lwgf ijvyN sLYlf afpxy shuiraF dy brUhF `qy KloqI hovy qy AusdI sws kwcI lwsI dovF jIaF qoN vfr rhI hovy, ijsdf isrPL rMg hI icwtf hovy pr jjLbfq dI mihk koeI rfjfn pI igaf hovy.