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blbIr kOr sMGyVf (kYnyzf)

blbIr kOr sMGyVf, brqfnIaf qoN kYnyzf jf vsI pMjfbI lyiKkf df nF sfihqk jgq ivc iek nfvlkwr, khfxIkfr aqy kivqrI dy rUp ivc
jfixaf pihcfixaf hY.
AusdIaF hux qwk swq pusqkF:
hwk dI mMg (nfvl),
iek Kwq swjxF dy nF (nfvl),
Btkx (khfxI sMgiRh),
afpxy hI Ehly (khfxI sMgiRh)
qVpF (kfiv sMgiRh)
KMBy (khfxI sMgRih)
aqy (huxy huxy) prCfeIaF dy Ehly[[[[prkrmF(XfdF)
CpIaF aqy bhu-cricq rhIaF hn. iek lMmf smF 'afr-pfr' nF df prcf vI sMpfidq krdy rhy hn.
srbq df Blf mMgidaF aqy socidaF Ausny nf kdy swc df pwlf hI Cwizaf hY aqy nf hI kdy swc dy aihsfs qoN kMnI hI kqrfeI hY. ijMdgI nUM bhuq nyiVAuN qwkidaF Ausny bVI hI isLwdq nfl ijvyN anuBv kIqf iqvyN hI afpxy aihsfsF nUM afpxI klm dI nok qy ilaFdf. sMGyVf hurF dI nvIN khfxI 'ihrfsq' ilKfrI dy pwTkF dy rU-b-rU hY.
(ilKwrI)

hr svyry, kMMm qy jfx qoN pihlF mYN kOPLI pIx vfsqy kOPI-tfeIm jLrUr jFdI. kOPLI lYNdI, ibnF KMz qoN, duwD jF krIm pfAuNdI hoeI, kwp PVdI aqy afpxy inXq tybl qy af bYTdI. iewQoN bYiTaF pUrI sVk ivKfeI idMdI sI. hr afAuNdy-jFdy nUM vyiKaf jf skdf sI. hr nvIN AuWgdI svyr nflL lokF dI Bwj-dOV, rMg-ibrMgy ilbfs, ilsLkdy-pusLkdy ichry, Audfs-gmgIn, AuWqry hoey ichry, BFq-suBFqIaF kfrF, bws ieho kuJ vyKidaF kOPLI pIqI jFdI aqy vkq awK dy Por ivwc inwkl jFdf.

Ausy qrHF, hr svyr, Auh vI afpxf brIPL kys hwQ ivwc PVI, sYWl Pon qy gwl krdf hoieaf kOPI hfAUs vVdf. sLrt, tfeI, sUt-bUt kwisaf hoieaf, pflsL ichrf, vfl cmkdy, byiDafnf ijhf, gwl krI jFdf aqy afpxf kOPLI df kwp aqy krOsON lYNdf, afpxy tybl vwl vwD jFdf. AuWQy bYTdf, kOPI iswp krdf aqy PfeIlF dy Qwby ProlI jFdf. sfrf brIPkys KolH ky mohry iKlfr lYNdf. ijvyN sfrI dunIaF df Bfr Ausny hI sMBflxf hovy.

Ausdf hwQ kOPI dy kwp vwl toh-toh ky vwDdf. kdI-kdfeIN PfeIlF vyKdf-vyKdf Auh kOPI df Guwt Brnf vI Buwl jFdf.

mYN kOPI pIx dy nflL-nflL, AusnUM hr rojL vyK ky, AusdI vI aYizkt ijhI ho geI. Auh ijvyN myrf, sfrf idn kwtx df nsLf bx igaf hovy. jy kr Auh lyt ho jFdf qF mYnUM acoqfxI ijhI lwg jFdI. iPLkr mn nUM Kfx lg pYNdf. iewk DuK-DuKI ijhI ihwk ivwc sulGdI.

Blf, koeI ievyN vI idl ivwc QFh bxf lYNdf hY? nhIN sF mYN jfxdI. Auh kOx sI, Auh vI nhIN sI pqf. pr AusdI afmd df iek nsLf sI, srUr sI, ijs nflL idn sOKf inwkl jFdf sI. … qy Pyr, pUrf idn Aus bfry socx dI loV nhIN sI pYNdI.

iek idn Auh kOPI hfAUs nf afieaf, myrI njLr sLIisLaF ivwcIN ijvyN hr kfr df rMg pCfx rhI sI. hr kfr ivwcoN inkldf hoieaf ichrf pCfx rhI sI. GVI dI sUeI afpxI rPLqfr dy nflL awgy vwDI jf rhI sI. nflL hI vD irhf sI myrf iPkr.

jIa kIqf, kOPI vflI vytrYWs nUM jf ky puwCF.

Blf kI puCFgI? ikhdy bfry puCFgI? ieh soc ky mYN afpxy afp nUM koisaf. kOx hY Auh? ikAuN mYnUM icMqf hY? afpxy pfgl-pn nUM, mYN afp hI iPtkfiraf. soicaf, eys qrHF qF jIvn ivc anykF iensfn afAuNdy hn. rfh-glI, bQyry bMdy imldy hn. sfiraF dI icMqf qF nhIN kIqI jf skdI.

Pyr ikAuN … mYN Aus dy bfry socI jf rhI sF?

pr mYN qMdoqfxI ivwc AulJI hI jf rhI sF, jdoN nUM Auh AuWGV-duwGV kwpiVaF ivwc AuWQy af phuMcf. Ausdf sYWl Pon bMd sI. brIP kys vI kol nhIN sI. tfeI-CfeI vI iZwlI ijhI bMnI hoeI sI. sLyv vI nhIN sI kIqI hoeI. … qy Auh kOPI df kwp lY ky afpxy tybl qy jf bYTf. kOPI nUM GUrdf irhf. Guwt Brdf, ijvyN Auh sMGoN nf AuWqr rhI hovy.

mYN bYTI vyK rhI sF. jIa kIqf jf ky puwC hI lvF.

mn ny afiKaf, kI afKyNgI? kI puwCyNgI?

kuwJ imMtF bfad iek aOrq Ausdy kol af bYTI. inMmoJUxI ijhI. zrI-sihmI hoeI.

Ayusny, Aus aOrq dy bYTx nflL myry vwl ieMj vyiKaf ijvyN mYQoN sLrimMdf ho igaf hovy.

mYN iDafn aKLbfr ivwc lfAux lwg peI. pVH nhIN rhI sF, isrPL vrky Prol rhI sF

Auh aOrq kuJ dyr bYT ky, kuJ kfgLjLF qy dsqKLq krf ky afpxf-afp smytdI hoeI clI geI.

Auh vI AuWiTaf, afpxf afp DrIkdf hoieaf qur igaf. kfr ivwc bYTx lwigaF, AusdI njLr iek vfrI Pyr myry nflL tkrfeI, mYnUM AusdI bycfrgI qoN qrs ijhf vI afieaf.

Auh sfrf idn myrf icMqf ivc inwkl igaf. slytI DUaF, myrI ihwk nUM icMbV igaf. sfh afAuxf aOKf ho igaf. myry nflL kMm krdI kuVI ny af ky puwiCaf, “kI gwl aj qyrI qbIaq TIk nhIN lgdI?”

“kI hoieaf mYnUM? cMgI BlI hF mYN.” afK ky mYN AusnUM tfl idwqf.

Auh muV-muV myry vl qwkdI hoeI clI geI.

mYN AuWTI, vftr kUlr qoN pfxI df kwp iewko sfhy zIk geI. mn sLFq Pyr vI nhIN sI ho irhf. aMdr ijvyN BwTI mG rhI sI.

mYnUM AusdI smwisaf afpxI bx geI jfpdI sI. AusdI prysLfnI, myry aMdr Gr kr geI jfpdI sI.

pr Auh hY kOx? Ausdf nF kI hY? kI irsLqf hY myrf Aus nflL? ies irsLqy dI vI smJ nhIN sI af rhI. ikAuN mYN Aus dy bfry icMqf kr rhI sF? smJo, sfrf idn myrf icMqf ivwc hI inwkl igaf.

Pyr soicaf, ‘kl suvyry, AusnUM bulf hI lvFgI’, afK ky mn nUM idlfsf idwqf, aqy rfq nUM sOx dI koisLsLsLsL kIqI. svyry AuWTI qF isr Bfrf sI, sfrI rfq nf nINd afeI, nf cYn.

mYN iqafr ho ky kMm qy Pyr clI geI. Ausy kOPI hfAUs ivc rojLfnf vFg kOPI pIx geI. njLr AusnUM Bfl rhI sI. aKLbfr cuwikaf, Proilaf, ijvyN iDafn AuWQy hY hI nhIN sI. pUrf GMtf mYN AuWQy bYTI rhI. Auh nhIN afieaf. afKr mYN afpxf bYg cuwikaf aqy afpxy dPLqr vwl qur peI.

kfr stfrt kIqI hI sI jdoN nUM Auh afAuNdf njLrIN ipaf. jIa kIqf jf ky puwCF, “ikAuN dyr kr idwqI sI? ikwQy sYN qUM? mYN icMqf krdI rhI.”

Pyr soicaf, ikhVy hwk nflL puCFgI. kOx bMdf hY Auh? mYnUM qF Ausdy nF df vI nhIN pqf.

awj Pyr Auh bixaf-sMviraf af irhf sI. brIPkys hwQ ivwc, sYWl Pon qy gwl krdf hoieaf.

mYN kfr, kfr pfrk ivwcoN kwZ ky, dubfrf Pyr pfrk kr idwqI. aMdr af ky kOPI df kwp hor lY ilaf. soicaf, kMm qy Pon kr idMdI hF, awj mYN dyr nflL afvFgI. koeI jLrUrI kMm pY igaf hY.

kOPI df kwp lY ky myry pYr afp-muhfry Ausdy tybl vwl ho qury.

KVI sF mYN Ausdy tybl dI nuwkr kol. ijvyN mYN AusnUM grm-grm suxfAuxIaF hox.

Auh mYnUM vyK ky boilaf, “my afeI hYlp XU?”

afpxI byvkUPI df aihsfs, myry aMdr cUMZIaF vwZx lg ipaf. sO rINGdIaF kIVIaF myry aMdr nUM Kfx lg peIaF. qy mYN, ‘afeI aYm sOrI’ afKdI hoeI muVn lwgI.

“sOrI Pfr vwt?” Ausny ijvyN TIm vFg myry svfl mfiraf.

jIa kIqf afK dyvF, ‘sOrI mYN qyry leI icMqf krdI rhI, sOrI mYN kmilaF vFg qYnUM AuzIkdI rhI, sOrI mYN qYnUM bYTy nUM vyKdI rhI. sOrI mYN qyrI smwisaf df ikafs krdI rhI … qy hor vI bhuq kuJ.’ pr mYN kuJ nhIN afiKaf.

“Eh niQMg …” afK ky mYN afpxy tybl vwl nUM qur peI.

“plIjL tyk ey sIt … mYN quhfnUM hr rojL hI vyKdf-imldf hF. lgdY quhfzf vI ieho kOPI hfAUs aY.” Ausny ipiCEN afiKaf. ijvyN ieh kOPI hfAUs asIN irjLrv krfieaf hovy.

“qusIN kl nhIN afey, soicaf puwC hI lvF, ikwDry ibmfr hI nf hovoN.” mYN afpxy idl dI gwl afK suxfeI.

“nhIN, ibmfr nhIN sF … pr ibmfrI ijhI hI ibmfrI sI. Ausdf aprysLn krnf sI.”

“mYN smJI nhIN … .”

“bYTo …” Ausny sfmHxI kursI vwl hwQ df iesLfrf kIqf.

mYN kursI iKwc ky bYT geI. Ausny afpxy kfgLjL iekwTy krny sLurU kr idwqy. mYnUM aihsfs hoieaf ik mYN Ausdy kMm ivwc rukfvt pf idwqI hY. mYN Pyr afiKaf, “lgdY, qusI bhuq ibjLI ho. mYnUM bYTxf nhIN sI cfhIdf.”

“jy kr bYT gey ho qF bYTy rho …” Ausny Tfh krdI gwl myry mUMh ’qy cupyV vFg mfrI.

mYN JUTI ijhI ho geI. soicaf, byvkUPLI dI sjLf vI imlxI hI cfhIdI sI. awgy qoN eys qrHF dI hrkq nhIN kryNgI.

Ausny kfgLjL iekwTy kIqy aqy afpxf hwQ vDfAuNdf hoieaf boilaf, “myrf nF jYk hY. qy qusI …?”

“sLIlf … ” mYN hwQ imlfAuNidaF afiKaf.

“mYnUM do imMt idAu, mYN kMm smyt lvF …” Ausny ies qrHF afiKaf, ijvyN ijLMdgI Br df kMm mukf ky vkq mYnUM dy irhf hovy.

Auh afpxy iDafn kfgLjL iewkTy krdf irhf. … qy mYN bYTI socdI rhI, eyh vI iks qrHF dI imlxI hY, jfx-pCfx rihq. ikAuN asIN hor lokF leI socx lwg pYNdy hF? ieh socidaF hoieaf myrf iDafn myry hI aqIq vwl muV igaf.

eysy kOPI hfAUs ivc mYnUM ajIq ny afiKaf sI, “kI mrd-aOrq df irsLqf, iewko huMdY? kI dyiKaf aY qUM ijhVf aYNj BVk peI aYN. Auh aOrq qF myrI dosq sI. myrI dosq Audfs sI, mYN qF isrPL hfl hI puwiCaf sI. vrHy Br asIN iewk dUjy df hfl-cfl puwCdy af rhy hF. iekwTy plLy-pVHy hF. jIvn dy vrHy asIN iekwTy ibqfey hn. kI hoieaf jy kr mYN Ausdy duwK dI GVI ivwc Ausdf pl Br leI sfQ dy idwqf? qusIN ieMzIaf qoN afeIaF hoeIaF kuVIaF ikMnIaF sLwkI huMdIaF ho. dosqI dy arQ jfxdIaF hI nhIN. qusIN ieh vyKdIaF ho, ieh afdmI hY, aYh aOrq hY, ienHF nUM qF gwl vI nhIN krnI cfhIdI. qusIN afpxy mn ivwc pihlF hI iek qsvIr bxf lYNdIaF ho ik ies aOrq nflL jLrUr quhfzf afdmI sONdf hovygf. eys qrHF dI sLwkI jLihnIaq ivwc mYN nhIN kwt skdf.”

mYN afK idwqf sI, “hr dUsrI aOrq nUM qyry kol bYTf, mYN vI nhIN vyK skdI. qihjLIb vI koeI cIjL huMdI aY. smfj ivwc mUMh-mwQf vI ivKfAuxf pYNdY. hr vyly icMqf ivwc gRsq mYN vI nhIN rih skUMgI. … qy qusIN vYst ivwc jMm pl ky, jfxdy kI ho? iewjLq-mfx df quhfnUM pqf hI nhIN …. jdoN jIa kIqf dosqI dy nF hyT, iksy nUM buwkl ivwc ibTfl ilaf. nhIN mMjLUr mYnUM ieh sB … .”

myrI gwl sux ky, ajIq AuWiTaf sI aqy ieh kihMdf hoieaf ik, “nYro mFeINz nUM iewjLq df nF nf idE. eys siBafcfr dy pfVy ivwc mYN pulFG ipwCy nhIN prq skdf. smF awgy qurn df hY. myry nflL kdm awgy vDfAuxf hY qF nflL qur pvo, vrnf … ” … qy Auh ieh afKdf hoieaf qur igaf sI.

mYN bYTI rhI sF. Ausdy nflL Bwj nhIN sF skdI. mYN irsLiqaF dy sMglF nflL bwJ ky rihxf cfhuMdI sF. ies bMnx nflL ajIq df dm Guwtdf sI.

nf Ausny muVky myrI bwqI vfhI aqy nf mYN Ausdy mgr hI geI. Ausny GroN sUtkys kwisaf aqy ikwDry hor zyrf jf lfieaf. inwq dI ikV-ikV nf AusnUM psMd sI nf mYnUM.

mYN vI soicaf, eys qrHF dy irsLqy dI kI loV hY? jdoN kuJ sFJf hY hI nhIN. iewk Cwq hyTF, do lfsLF qurIaF iPrn. nf AusnUM myrf pqf aqy nf mYnUM Ausdf pqf. vgdI hvf ivwc pwiqaF vFg BtkI jfxf ikwQoN dI aklmMdI hY? sLukr aY, koeI bwcf vI nhIN sI. mYN qF pihlF hI ivafh leI rfjLI nhIN sF. afKr XUnIvristI lYvl qk pVHI sF. pr ieh iensfn mYnUM jLfhl aOrq sfbq krn qy quilaf hoieaf sI. soicaf, gMvfr mYN nhIN, gMvfr qF iewQoN dI siBqf ’c ply hoey bMdy ny. nhIN gvfrf sI mYnUM ieh sfQ. nhIN cfhUMdI sF mYN hr rojL kwcy BFzy vFg iqVkI jfxf. mYN vI soicaf, iksy nUM ieMzIaf qoN mMgvf lvFgI, afpxy lYvl dI sFJ pfvFgI. iewQy dy jMm pl nUM kI sfr iewjLq kI cIjL huMdI aY.

… qy mYN Ausdf ipwCf nf kIqf. mF ny vfsqy pf-pf icwTIaF ilKIaF. mYN sB axsuxIaF kr idwqIaF. koeI jvfb nf idwqf. soicaf, mF nUM kI pqf pRdysF ivwc vsx vfilaF dI iPqrq df, AunHF dy duwKF, qklIPLF df.

Pyr pUrf sfl lwgf qlfk lYx vfsqy. mYN Ausdy aqy afpxy, sfry hwkF nUM vI qlfk dy ky, AusqoN qlFjlI lY leI. ajIq ny rsmIN qOr qy Gr, pYsy sB afPr kIqy. mYnUM kuJ vI gvfrf nf hoieaf. afK idwqf, “mYN pVHI ilKI hF. nhIN loV mYnUM qyry pYsy-Dyly dI. kmf lvFgI mYN afpy.”

mYN afpxf kMm krdI, ijLMdgI ijAuNdI.

ajIq ny aYsI ipwT moVI, kdy muV ky ivKfeI hI nf idwqf.

do ku vrHy bfad, mYN koisLsL kIqI sI iksy nflL nfqf gMZx dI. nvIN sFJ pfAux dI. ieMzIaf geI qF mihsUs hoieaf, irsLqf Gwt aqy lflc df sfQ vwD iml irhf sI. pihlF ivafhI-vrI df Twpf vI mwQy df dfgL bixaf hoieaf sI. soc dy hfxI dI sFJ qF iml hI nhIN sI rhI. hr iewk leI mYN isrPL rfhdfrI sF. lokF dIaF gwlF sux-sux ky myry idmfg ivwc ijvyN DUeyN df gubfr ’kwTf hoeI jFdf sI. myrI mF dI ihwk ’c AuWTdI cIs, aqy awKF ivwc JlkdI bycfrgI ijvyN myrf aMdr cIr jFdI sI. mYN AuWQoN vI sB kuJ Cwz-Czf ky KflI hwQ vfips muV afeI.

Aus vyly mYnUM aihsfs hoieaf sI ik iewk mYlI cfdr nUM pihnx vfilaF dy mn ikMny kwptI sn qy imwTy bolF dy ipwCy cwldIaF qyjL ktfrF sn. hr iewk nUM mYN nhIN sF cfhIdI, myry dsqKLq kIqy hoey rfhdfrI cfhIdI sI. ijs dy bdly Auh mYnUM lwKF rupY dyx nUM iqafr sn. … dunIaF dI mMzI ivwc myrf muwl pY irhf sI.

Aus vyly mYnUM ajIq cyqy afieaf sI. AusdI soc vI swcI-suwcI jfpI. vkq pYx nflL mYnUM vI eys dysL dy lokF bfry pqf lwg igaf sI ik jo kuJ hY, Auh sB dy sfmHxy hY. koeI Ehlf nhIN hY. bws smJx dI loV hY.

ajIq kol jfx nUM idl qF kIqf, Pyr soicaf, Ausdy pYrF dI byVI vI ikAuN bxF? myry svYmfn nUM vI ieh gvfrf nf hoieaf. soicaf, AusnUM do kdm awgy jfxf cfhIdf hY nf ik ipwCy. ieho qF Ausny afiKaf vI sI.

Aus vyly qoN lY ky awj qIkr, mYN eysy kOPI hfAUs ivwc afAuNdI rhI. mn dI qFG bxI rhI ik, kdI ajIq iewQy af hI jfvy. pr Auh nf afieaf. AusnUM Bflx dI mYN vI koisLsL nf kIqI. soicaf, kI Pfiedf?

…qy mYN eys kOPI hfAUs dI ijvyN aYizkt ho geI. ies dy nflL mYnUM myry eys sfQI df nsLf ho igaf, ijsnUM mYN jfxdI hI nhIN sF. ieh hr rojL afpxy tybl qy bYTf kdI kfgLjL PLroldf aqy kdI lYb-tOp qy kuJ dyK irhf huMdf qy mYN afpxf aKLbfr pVHdI. AusdI hoNd df hI iewk srUr ijhf rihMdf.

“ikwQy guafc gey …?” jYk ny myrI soc qoVI.

“kfienfq dy DUMeyN ivwc bhuq kuJ guaficaf hoieaf huMdY, AusnUM PVn dI koisLsL kr rhI sF.”

“ieh kdI hwQ nhIN afAuNdY … . ajLmf ky vyK lYxf.” Ausny ichry qy muskfn ilafAuNidaF afiKaf.

“quhfzf vI cMgf qjLrubf jfpdY …?” mYN svfl kIqf.

“hF kuJ eys qrHF dI hI gwl smJo ….” Ausny byiDafny ijhy ny afiKaf.

mYN ies qoN awgy kuJ puwCxf jfiejL nf smiJaf. mYnUM ieh vI mihsUs hoieaf ijvyN mYN Ausdy tybl qy bYT ky Buwl kIqI hovy.

Ausny kfgLjL smyty aqy ieh kihMdf hoieaf AuWT KVoqf, “mYN qF awj kort jfxf hY. bhuq lyt ho igaf hF.”

mYN afpxy afp nUM lfhxq pfeI ik ikAuN afpxy kMm df vkq vI Krfb kIqf? ikwzf rUz bMdf hY. … qy mYN vI Biraf ijhf mn lY ky afpxy kMm qy clI geI. mn pCqfvy dI awg ivwc Juls huMdf irhf.

UjI svyr, mYnUM Auh Pyr Ausy QF iml ipaf. mYN kOPI lY ky afpxy tybl vwl ho qurI. soicaf, awj AusnUM bulf ky, kl vflI Buwl nhIN krFgI.

jYk afpxy tybl qy bYTf, Ausy qrHF PfeIlF Prol irhf sI. do ku imMt hI hoey sn jdoN Auh myry tybl dy kony kol KVf mYnUM bYTx leI puwC irhf sI.

“hF bYTo …” mYN suBfvk hI afiKaf.

“kl mYN vyly isr kort ivwc phuMcxf sI. iksy dI rIprYjYNtysLn sI. eysy leI clf igaf. muafPL krnf mYN vYsy, aYnf by-ruKLf nhIN hF.” Ausny afpxI sPLfeI pysL kIqI.

“iewt iejL E[ky[. XU zONt hYv tU aksplyn tU mI.” mYN qihjLIb dy qOr qy afiKaf.

“nhIN, iensfn nUM aYnf byiDafnf vI nhIN ho jfxf cfhIdf. mYN qF jdoN vI koeI kys lYNdf hF, smJo myrf afpxf afp vI Aus kys ivwc hI lpyitaf jFdf hY. bs bONdl jFdf hF. myry koloN iksy df duwK dyiKaf hI nhIN jFdf.” Auh afK irhf sI.

“qusIN jLrUr hor lokF qoN vwKrI imwtI dy bxy hoey hovogy, qF?” mYN mKOl kIqf.

bs eysy qrHF asIN inwkIaF-inwkIaF gwlF krdy rhy. AusdIaF gwlF qoN pqf lwgf, Auh iek vkIl sI. Ausdf kMm ksUrvfr nUM vI CzvfAuxf sI. knUMn dy dfa-pyc AusnUM cMgy afAuNdy sn. jdoN Ausdf koeI kys kort ivwc jwj dy sfmHxy pysL huMdf qF, kithry ivwc KVy bMdy nUM Auh ies qrHF cwkr ivwc pfAuNdf sI, ik Ausdy hosL Auz jFdy sn. gvfh swc boldf-boldf JUT bolx lg pYNdf aqy JUT boldf hoieaf swc. bMdf bONdl jFdf sI.

ijAuN-ijAuN mYN Ausdy nyVy ho rhI sF, iqAuN hI mYnUM AusdI aslIaq df pqf lwg irhf sI.

Auh ivafihaf-viraf bMdf sI. do Ausdy bwcy sn.

iewk idn Auh hfly kOPLI hfAUs ivwc nhIN sI afieaf, jdoN iewk aOrq af ky myry kol bYT geI. ieh Auho aOrq sI ijsny iek idn jYk qoN kuJ kfgLjLF qy dsqKLq krvfey sn. sLfied iesny mYnUM kdI jYk dy kol bYTf vyiKaf hovygf. Auh mYnUM jYk dy bfry dwsx lwg peI ik, “jYk bhuq hI sLwkI iksm df afdmI hY. Auh afpxI bIvI jYnt nUM GroN bfhr nhIN inklx idMdf. jy kr Auh iksy nflL gwl vI krdI hY qF AusnUM kuwtdf, mfrdf hY. Ausdy donoN bwcy zrdy Aus dy kol nhIN afAuNdy. lokF ivwc Auh mMinaf-dwinaf vkIl hY, pr afpxy hI twbr leI jwlfd hY.”

mYN soc rhI sF ik myry nflL gwl krn dy drimafn vI Auh keI vfr afpxI bIvI nUM Gr Pon krdf sI. inwkI-inwkI zItyl puwCdf sI. jYk nflL gwlF kridaF hoieaF mYnUM Aus aOrq qy qrs afAuNdf. ikvyN svflF dI buCfV sihMdI hovygI Auh? mYN socIN pY jFdI sF.

hux ies aOrq dy dwsx qy mYN vI soicaf, jdoN jYk afpxI Gr vflI dI gwl krdf sI qF roh ivwc af jFdf sI.

Ausny Pyr dwisaf, “jdoN jYnt dy ijsm AuWqy nIl pYx leI hor koeI QFh nf rhI qF Ausny iksy sLYltr (kuwt-mfr sih ky GroN-byGr hoeIaF aOrqF df adfrf) df shfrf lY ilaf. vkIl hox dy nfqy jYk ny AusnUM AuWQy vI jf Bfilaf aqy afpxy bwcy lY ky Gr af igaf. bwicaF dI Kfqr jYnt nUM vI Gr prqxf ipaf. kihMdy hn, mrdI kI nf krdI.”

mYN AusnUM puwiCaf, “Auh pulIs df shfrf ikAuN nhIN lYNdI?”

Auh afKx lwgI, “Ausny iewk vyrF koisLsL kIqI sI. pulIs af vI geI. zumYsitk vfielYNs vfsqy iesnUM PV ky lY vI geI. ieh iewk rfq pulIs stysLn rih ky vfps af igaf. Aus idn ieh pulIs stysLn qoN rfq kwt ky iswDf hI afieaf sI ijs idn mYN ies nUM imlx afeI sF. iesy leI ies dI hflq BYVI sI. vYsy vI zumYsitk vfielYNs vwl pulIs iDafn qF idMdI hY … pr ieh Tihiraf iek vkIl. afKr suxvfeI eys dI hI hoeI.

ies koisLsL dI sjLf jYnt nUM aYnI BugqxI peI hY ik, mfr Kf-Kf ky AusnUM iewk kMn qoN suxnf vI bMd ho igaf hY. Auh qF afpxy GridaF nUM vI nhIN iml skdI. Gr vfly AusnUM Pon vI nhIN kr skdy. Aus nflL gwl nhIN kr skdy, Ausdf hfl nhIN puwC skdy. asIN pulIs kol jYnt dI rwiKaf vfsqy qrly pf cuwky hF, pr sfzI koeI suxvfeI hI nhIN huMdI. pulIs df kihxf hY ik jYnt ijMnf icr afp iesdy ivruD gvfhI nhIN idMdI, AuWnF icr, AunHF dy hwQ-vws kuJ nhIN hY.”

“AusnUM gvfhI dy dyxI cfhIdI hY.” mYN ijvyN suJfa pysL idwqf.

“ieho qF asIN vI kihMdy hF. pr AusnUM qF afpxI jfn df Kqrf hY. Auh afKdI hY ik BfvyN Auh dunIaF dy iksy kony ivwc jf ky luk jfvy, jYk AusnUM hr-hfl ivwc Bfl lvygf. jdoN Auh AusnUM iml geI qF AusdI jfn geI. sYpryt hox vfsqy vI ieho smwisaf hY. jYnt mfr Kf-Kf ky aYnI zrI hoeI hY ik, Auh iesdy ivruD kuJ afK hI nhIN skygI. jdoN vkIlF dy nflL gwl krdy hF qF koeI hor Cotf-motf vkIl Ausdf kys vI nhIN lYNdf. jYk iek pfvrPuwl vkIl hY, vwzI kMpnI df ihwsydfr. jy koeI vkIl iesdy mohry KVdf hY qF kI AunHF ny afpxy-afp qy jF afpxI kMpnI qy kfAuNtr kys krvfAuxf hY? kOx afpxy afp nUM ies qrHF dI siQqI ivwc pfvy. kOx afpxf afp, afpxf DMn, afpxI prYkts guafvy? ieh hr qrHF nflL, afpxf bcfa kr lYNdf hY.”

“quhfnUM ieh sB ikvyN pqf lwgf?” mYN AusnUM svfl kIqf.

“mYN jYnt dI BYx klyarf hF. koisLsL kr rhI hF, iksy nf iksy qrHF afpxI BYx nUM iesdy jfl ivwcoN kwZ skF. AusdI jfn bcf skF. vrnf … ” qy Ausny gwl aDUrI Cwz idwqI.

kuJ imMt Tihr ky, Auh myry donoN hwQ PVdI hoeI bolI, “mYN qYnUM Ausdy kol bYiTaF bhuq vfr qwikaf hY.

pihlF qF socdI sF, qusIN koeI klfieMt hovogy. jdoN hr rojL quhfnUM iekwTy bYTy vyiKaf qF mn zr igaf. mYN qF ieho afKxf sI, plIjL bI-kyarPuwl …. hI hYjL ey zfrk sfeIz, ivc iewjL vYrI zyNjrYWs. hI iejL nOt vwt hI sImjL. ieh Auh bMdf nhIN hY jo ivKfeI idMdf hY.” qy Auh mYnUM vfrinMg dy ky afpf DrIkdI hoeI clI geI.

jdoN mYnUM jYk dI ijLMdgI bfry pqf lwgf qF mYN kOPI pIxI hI Cwz idwqI. Auh rfh vI bdl ilaf. soicaf, bMdf hY hI iewk Kqrnfk jfnvr. kOx iks qrHF df hY, iksy nUM pqf hI nhIN cldf. kOx iksy dy mn dI qih qwk phuMc skdf hY? kI loV peI hY mYnUM, eys qrHF dI dosqI dI.

jYk dI afdq qoN mYnUM afpxf cyqf vI afieaf. myry aMdr ajIq nUM iksy hor nflL gwl kridaF vyK ky eysy qrHF dI jlx hox lwg pYNdI sI. ieh jlx awgy jf ky ies qrHF df BYVf rUp DfrdI hY, bMdf eys qrHF afpxf afp guaf bYTdf hY, mYnUM nhIN sI pqf.

Aus vyly mYnUM afpxf-afp, afpxf mn, bhuq koJf jfipaf. jYk nflLoN vI burf. mYN soc rhI sF, jy kr ajIq mYnUM jYk dy nflL gwl kridaF vyKdf qF kI socdf? bws eynIN ku hI qF gwl sI.

qy Pyr iek sLfm mYN bYTI tI[vI vyK rhI sF, jdoN jYk dI qsvIr tI[vI[ AuWqy ivKfeI idwqI. KLbrF vflf bMdf afK irhf sI, “iewk aOrq ny afpxy suwqy pey afdmI df isr, DV nflLoN lfh idwqf.”

mYnUM Aus vyly afpxI grdn ’qy qyjL Dfr dI ktfr iPrdI mihsUs hoeI. kwcIaF qRylIaF ny myrf ijsm ByNa idwqf. … qy mYN tI[vI[ bMd kr idwqf.

mn dI GuMmxGyrI ivwc AulJI, mYN keI kuJ soc geI. afpxy bfry, ajIq bfry, jYk bfry aqy jYnt bfry. jYnt, ijsdy aMdr jLulm sih-sih ky, iewk jvflfmuKLI Puwt inklI sI. ijsny Ausdf, aqy Ausdy bwicaF df jIvn qbfh kr idwqf sI.

Aus vyly mYnUM mihsUs ho irhf sI ijvyN Auh qsvIr jYk dI nhIN, myrI hovy. Auh isr jYk df nhIN myrf hovy. … qy ajIq hwQkVIaF ivwc jkiVaf ihrfsq ivwc hovy.

(eI-myl rfhIN: 5 PrvrI 2002 nUM)

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