ieh vI nhIN huMdf, awKF KulHx qy jd sfhmxy koeI mn BAuNdI sUrq nf hovy qF iKVkI dy bfhr vyKx qy gvFZI dy ivhVy ivwc kuJ awD iKVy, kuJ iKVy PLuwl-bUty lihrfAuNdy njLr afAux. Auh qF njLr nhIN afAuNdy pr KurmfnIaF qy isaF dy drKqF dIaF AuwcIaF KVIaF tihxIaF dId df sfmfn bx jFdIaF ny. tihxIaF qy ltky hoey isAuN cMgy lwgdy ny. sB qoN AuwcI tihxI bhuq AuwcI qy iswDI hY. iesdy nfl iewk hor tihxI ivKfeI dy rhI ey ijsdy nfl iewDr AuDr do isAuN ny. sLfied ienHF dy kfrn hI ies ivwc Jukf hY. kI ies iswDI bVI AuwcI lMbI tihxI qy Pwl lwgy qF Auh vI Juwk jfvygI?

iPr nIlf bhuq hI sfPL asmfn ey. dOVdy luBfAuNdy bwdl ny. iewk pMCI dUr qwk Auwzdf njLrF qoN Auhly ho irhf hovy qF njLfrf kI qoN kI ho jFdf hY? cOhIN pfsIN PYlI KusLhflI idwl ivwc guwdguwdI krdI ey. sfhmxy phfVIaF qy PYlI hiraflI iDafn iKwcdI ey. ikho ijhI by-qrqIb hiraflI ivwc zuwbI mn-mohxI qsvIr ey. ipwCy koeI icqrkfr? ikwQy luwikaf ey? hy rwbf!

DrqI vlF vyKo qF mitaflI sONDI pwDr ivwc smf jfx nUM jI cfhuMdf ey. vwK vwK cMgy qoN cMgy ichry, kuJ imwtI dI rfKI hyT dwby, bfkI jLfihr qy nMgy. ieh rMg BrIaF bsqIaF. ieh sLihr. nHyiraF nfl lVdy cfnx. jgmg mfhOl. ieh rOxkF. ieh asmfn. ieh hirafvl. ieh jMgl. ieh cOpfey. ieh bwdl. Auzfx qy kurbfn huMdy pMCI. ieh irmiJm mINh. rOlf pfAuNdIaF ndIaF. isr-ptkdy nfly. pur-sLFq JIlF. ikqy Gwt ikqy vD qyjL cfl dy diraf. gihrf nIlf ikqy hrf smuMdr. ieh ibjLleI lihrF qy imlI-julI iensfnIN afvfjLF dI gUMj. ieh jMgl, ieh ryigsqfn. byqhfsLf hvfvF. kdy hr pfsy cuwp. suwky qy igwly phfV. Jrny. jvflfmuKI. iehnF qoN PLuwtdf lfvf. lFbU. grm kfly vgx vfly rMgF df husn. brbfdI qy husn? mOq qoN ibnF ijLMdgI bykfr ey? ieMJ hI KusLI, KusLI ey jykr gLm dI Et ivwc hovy. jMgF huMdIaF ny. vfqfvrn ivwc icrFd (cmVy, vfl qy hwzIaF sVn dI bdbU), hrFd (kwcy, PlF, PuwlF dI bo) PYl jFdI ey. mOq df swnftf Cf jFdf ey. bMb PLwtdy ny. sLihr AujVdy ny. qbfhIaF mwcdIaF hn. lokIN mrdy ny. gunfhgfr, mfsUm, mrd, iesqrIaF, buwZy, apfhj sB mrdy hn. bwcy vI mrdy ny. ies sMsfr dy iksy nf iksy koxy ivwc, iKwqy ivwc lVfeI iCVdI ey. CyVI jFdI ey. Psfd huMdf ey. dihsLq df rfj huMdf ey. iensfnF nfl kIiVaF mkOiVaF ijhf slUk kIqf jFdf ey. ipMz, ksby, sLihrF dy sLihr brbfd kr idwqy jFdy ny. kmIinaF qy mskInIaF nUM msl idwqf jFdf ey. suhfg AujfV idwqy jFdy hn. rfgF nUM cuwp krvf idwqf jFdf ey. sfjL qoV idwqy jFdy hn. godF KflI kr idwqIaF jFdIaF hn. BYxF dI afbrU luwtdI ey. mfvF df vkfr qy iejLq bydrygL pYrF hyT ilqfiVaf jFdf ey. buwiZaF nUM Kuafr aqy bwicaF nUM kql kIqf jFdf ey. jvfnF nUM golIaF nfl BuMn idwqf jFdf ey. luwt-Koh dsqUr bx igaf ey. mOq dI igxqI imxqI ivwc aMqF df vfDf huMdf jFdf ey. iPr vI sMsfr KflI nhIN huMdf. jnm dr vwDdI jFdI ey. iewk qoN bfad iewk qbdIlIaF ivwc qyjL vfDf vyKx ivwc af irhf ey. cMd-sUrj gRihxy jFdy ny. ikafmq nhIN afAuNdI. iewDr bhwqr virHaF bfad sUrj nUM pUrf gRihx lwigaf. kuJ vI nhIN hoieaf. muVky iehI sUrj iekfnvyN vrHy bfad nHyry ivwc zuwbygf. inklygf. kOx hovygf? kOx nhIN hovygf? dunIaF ieMJ hI afbfd rvHygI.

ikMnI sohxI ey ieh dunIaf. rUs qy amrIkf ivwc TMzI jMg df Kfqmf ho cuwikaf ey. hux ieh afpxy vwzy rfjF ivwc iensfnI srIrF dIaF PslF bIj rhy hn. afpxf afpxf ZMg ey. anigxq dysL hn. iehnF ivwc bury-Bly sB qrHF dy lOkIN mOjUd ny. afbfd ny.

iewk prsLoqm lfl hY.

Auh afpxy mfqf-ipqf dIaF awKF df qfrf hY.

prsoqm ny bI¤ey¤ kIqf. sLyv bnfAux lwg ipaf sI. bflgL sI. afpxf Blf-burf jfxdf sI. iksmq nfl nOkrI vI iml geI sI. aMg aMg ‘coN jvfnI PLuwt rhI sI pr by-muhfr hox qoN pihlF hI mfipaF ny ivafh kr idwqf. ijho ijhf ieh Auho ijhI AUsLf. joV Bwdf qy burf nhIN sI. imln dy nfl hI mrjLI iml geI sI. cMgI inwB rhI sI. do iewk vrHy lMGx mgroN AusdI mF kuMqI nUM iPkr hox lwgf. icMqf ieh sI ik nUMh dy sMqfn nhIN. Kfndfn suPLl nf ho pfvygf qF purKF df nF imwt jfvygf. by-sMqfn nUMh iks nUM cMgI lwgdI ey? idn rfq bfbU jI dI ijLwd vwDx lwgI. puwqr dUjf ivafh krvf lY. sfzIaF buwJdIaF awKF ivwc poqy-poqI dI sUrq ivKf ky nvIN joq jgf dy. AUsLf Audfs rihx lwgI. prsLoqm ny idlfsf idwqf ik Auh Aus Auqy sONkx nhIN ilafvygf pr AUsLf dy idn df cYn qy rfqF dI nINd Auwz geI. Gr df suwK-cYn iqwqr-ibwqr hox hI vflf sI ik cmqkfr ho igaf. AUsLf dy pYr Bfry ho gey. smyN qoN pihlF hI sqmfhf joVy hoey. puwqr jnm vyly hI pUrf ho igaf. sfry duwKI hoey pr KusLI ieh sI ik DI bwc geI. nF koml rwiKaf igaf. bfbf-dfdI jIa AuwTy. iehnF dI prsMnqf df koeI itkfxf nhIN sI. prsLoqm qy AUsLf vI KusL sn. PLuwly nf smfAuNdy sn. sfry bwcI dI tihl-syvf ivwc lwg gey. duwD ivwc nhfAuNdy, sony dI burkI KuafAuNdy.

hOlI hOlI kmjLor ijhI, mwKxI ijhI koml hwQ pYr kwZx lwgI. dfdI kihMdI bwc bwc inklI. dfdI jIa AuwTI. purKF dI prMprf aqy insLfn bwc igaf. kI pqf dyr-svyr dUjf cmqkfr hovy. rwb muMzf vI dy dyvy! kI afsLfvF df koeI aMq huMdf ey?

kuMnby dI lfzlI ijvyN ijvyN plI-vDI, inKrdI geI. lwgdf komlqf df dUjf nF ieho lVkI ey. kuVI kI sI? rUp dI puqlI, suMdrqf ivwc ZlI mUrq sI. prI sI. nYx-nksL lfjvfb. prsLoqm sLIsLf vyKdf aqy socdf nf mF ieMnI sohxI nf Auh hI iksy igxqI ivwc, iPr ieh sohxI koml iks qy geI? ieh kihxf aOKf sI ik AUsLf koml qy ijLafdf jfn iCVkdI hY ik prsLoqm DI nUM vyK vyK ijAuNdf hY?

pihlF sB dI koisLsL sI ik iksy dI njLr nf lwgy iPr ieh iDafn rihx lwgf ik kuVI iksy dI njLr ivwc nf afvy. iewk hIrf iehnF nUM iml igaf sI ijsdI rfKI krdy krdy pihlF dfdI iPr bfbf afpxI jfn hfr gey. iehnF dy ipCoN mjLfl ey ik mfipaF ny iksy nUM DI Auqy burI njLr pfAux idwqI hovy. muslmfn huMdy qF prdf krdy. AuNJ koml nUM hr qrHF dI afjLfdI sI. dosqF nUM imldI. Gr bulfAuNdI. ijwQy prsLoqm nf jf skdf AUsLf nfl jFdI.

iewk idn sdf dy Ault, koml ny Pon krky ikhf ik Gr dyr nfl afvygI. iPr ieh gwl afm bx geI. iewk idn sLfied AuhI ijhVf pihlF kdy Cwz igaf sI aqy prsLoqm vyK nf sikaf sI, koml dy nfl aMdr afieaf. asLok kih ky jfx pihcfx krvfeI geI. prsLoqm dy pYrF hyToN DrqI iKsk geI. ikwQy koml, ikwQy ieh AUq df AUq. iblkul AUT. koeI kl iswDI nf bfq. prsLoqm prfcIn ihMd df nhIN sI aqy nf hI asLok hI eIsf msIh dy jnm qoN iqMn sdIaF pihlF df (asLok rfjf). koeI imafr qF huMdf. kI njLr afieaf ies bd-sLkl aqy bd-qmIjL ivwc koml nUM. pr Auh cuwp irhf. AuQy KVy KVy hI ipAu-DI ivckfr iewk kMD Ausr geI. AUsLf ny ikhf asLok nUM bYTx leI qF kho. Auh sfry bYTy. aijhy mOky qy ijhVf isLsLtfcfr huMdf hY Auh vI iniBaf. pr asLok dy jfx qy prsLoqm qoN brdfsLq nf hoieaf. ijLMdgI ivwc pihlI vfr grj ky, kVk ky AUsLf nUM koisaf. Aus dI cfhq df kyNdr AuhI do hsqIaF sn: AUsLf aqy koml. swcI gwl qF ieh ik koml Ausdf hIrf AusdI jfn sI aqy ijsdI rfKI AusdI ijLMmyvfrI sI. koml df BivwK AusnUM ipafrf sI. jfn nfloN vwD ipafrf. pr jd AUsLf ny ikhf asLok AuhnF dI DI dI psMd hY, Auh Aus nfl ipafr krdI hY. ies swc nUM mMn lYxf cfhIdf hY. dKLl nhIN dyxf cfhIdf. asLok AusdI vI psMd hY qd prsLoqm hfr igaf. ivroD Cwz idwqf. hfr mMn leI. soicaf koml awj kl dI lVkI hY. afpxf Blf burf jfxdI hY. sKLqI kIqI, Gr qoN nwT geI qF bdnfmI hovygI. iejLq imwtI ivwc iml jfvygI. kfnUMn aprfDF nfl inptx dI QF kuVIaF nUM rfKI dyx qy vwD iDafn dy irhf hY. jd aOlfd hI KotI hovy qF kI ho skdf hY? qdbIrF bykfr jFdIaF hn.

kI sMqfn ieMJ bdl skdI hY? mfipaF qoN AuhnF df hwk Koh skdI hY? kOx jvfb idMdf? hwd qF ieh hY ik pqnI ny vI koeI hmdrdI nf ivKfeI aqy DI dI ho geI. ies rMg bdldI dunIaF ivwc jo nf bdly Auh mUrK aqy nfdfn. pr koeI ikMnf ku bdly?

iewk rfq mF-DI asLok dy nfl isnmy jfx df kih ky geIaF qF rfq Br nf muVIaF. ieh bhuq asfDfrn gwl sI. iPr ieh asfDfrn gwl nf rhI. muV muV ieMJ hox lwgf. prsLoqm ies moV qy smJOqf nf kr sikaf. Cfx-bIx kIqI. pqf lwgf ik koml mF dy nfl mfsI dy Gr jFdI hY aqy AuQoN kwlI hI iksy dUjI QF!! asLok ivafihaf hoieaf hY. Ausdy do bwcy vI hn. pr hux Aus nfl koml df koeI myl-imlfp nhIN irhf!!

Byq KulHx qy prdf AuwTx qy AUsLf ny afpxI ivDvf, inrsMqfn BYx dy nfl sFJI afqm-hwiqaf krn dI koisLsL kIqI. pr bdnsIb bcf leI geI. Auh hux apMg qy apfhj hY. sPfeI-suQrfeI qoN geI. bol vI nhIN skdI. bhuq ielfj krvfieaf. prsLoqm kwlf dyK-Bfl krdf hY. iewk, do, iqMn pUry cfr sfl ho gey koeI suDfr huMdf jF Prk pYNdf njLr nhIN afAuNdf. AUsLf qoN jdoN vI sMBv huMdf hY qF Auh afpxy swjy hwQ dI iewk AuNgl dI shfieqf nfl kMpIAUtr Auqy iewk hI vfk ilKdI hY: DI df ivafh kr idAu. prsLoqm hF ivwc isr ihlf ky hfmI Brdf hY qF AUsLF dy ichry Auqy qswlI dI lihr dOVdI idws pYNdI hY.

prsLoqm JUTf jF pRx BMnx vflf nhIN pr iesdI iewk mjLbUrI hY. koml Gr dyr nfl afAuNdI hY. rojL svyry hI inkl jFdI hY. prsLoqm nfl AusdI mulfkfq hI ikwQy huMdI hY ik Auh mF dI iewCf DI qwk phuMcf sky.

(pMjfbI rUp: zf: g:s:r:)